Church history -- Primitive and early church, ca. 30-600 -- Fiction
“Dogs—dogs—dogs!”—she hated the whole scheme of life, that made of
her love and womanhood a pawn to lust and power. ’Twas all very well for
the Christian presbyter and the great revivalist to hurl anathemas at
her sin; but was the sin hers, which had forced her down in the
cesspools of lustful slime? If the world had made her sin, she would
take toll of the world for her sin and exact tribute that would
compensate her loss for the sin.
Rebel? Yes, she knew she was rebel; but who had turned her into rebel?
If she could not fight Rome, she would exact price from Rome, by beating
it at its own ruthless gamble for power. To be sure, the presbyter and
the revivalist had offered her refuge from Rome in a Shadowy Kingdom not
made with hands; but had the God of that Shadowy Kingdom reached down
miraculous hand and saved her from the price she had already paid? Could
all the tears of repentance and sorrow for that past—which was not her
fault—wipe out the memories that seared her soul a quivering red? The
great revivalist had warned it was she who was tempting the young Greek
convert of the New Faith. Tempting? She laughed; and struck her frantic
horse again with all the vicious strength in her woman arm. It was she,
who had been tempted by a type of love she had not dreamed could exist
in the world of men; and what could she give back for that type of
love—now? An assoiled thing with drugged memories, which all the waters
of Dead Sea hopes and useless tears could not wipe out. How easily she
could have drawn the young Greek convert’s lips to her own and drawn his
soul through those lips and held it enchained forever in enchanted
fetters he did not dream! She loved him too well to make of his life
what fate had made of hers.
She laughed now because she was forever past tears. She struck the horse
again and again because she would have made all living creatures suffer
a little of what she was suffering; and she could have screamed in such
a fury of incarnate demon exultation as the warrior women of the
barbarians screamed when they tortured fallen foe— She would have
laughed if the horse had stumbled and caused her death—that, at least,
would be going down with defiance in the very teeth of fate; but a
frantic horse on devil’s errand somehow does not stumble. It carries us
into the very pit of fate.
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