"Did I scare you? I'm sorry," he said, speaking in a hushed tone
because of the woman in the next room. "I was thinking about a man I
may meet some day; and if I do meet him, the chances are I'll kill him.
I--didn't--I forgot where I was--" He threw out a hand in a gesture
that amply completed explanation and apology and fumbled in his pocket
for tobacco and papers. Abstractedly he began the making of a
cigarette.
Billy Louise put wood on the fire, pulled up a square, calico-padded
stool, and sat down. She waited, and she had the wisdom to wait in
complete silence.
Ward leaned forward with a twig in his hand, got it ablaze, and lighted
his cigarette. He did not look at Billy Louise until he had taken a
whiff or two. Then he stared at her for a full minute, and ended by
flipping the charred twig playfully into her lap, and laughing a little
because she jumped.
"What made you catch your breath when I told my name that night I
came?" he asked quizzically, but with a tensity behind the lightness of
his tone and behind the little smile in his eyes as well. "Where had
you ever heard of me before?"
Billy Louise gasped again, sent a lightning-thought into the future,
and answered more casually than she had hoped she could.
"When I was a kid I ran across the name--somewhere--and I used it to
play with--"
"Yes?"
"You know--I was always making believe different things. I never had
anyone to play with in my life, so I had a pretend-girl, named Minervy.
And I had you. I used to have you rescue us from Indians and things,
but mostly you were a road-agent or a robber, and when you weren't
holding me or Minervy for ransom, I was generally leading you over some
most ungodly trails, saving you from posses and things. I used," said
Billy Louise, forcing a laugh, "to have some wild old times with you,
believe me! So when you told your name, why--it was just like--you
know; it was exactly like having a doll come to life!"
He eyed her fixedly until she tingled with nervousness.
"Yes--and what about--understanding all about it? Do you?" He drew in
his under lip, let it go, and drew it again between his teeth, while he
frowned at her thoughtfully. "Do you understand all about it?" he
insisted, leaning toward her and never once taking that boring gaze
from her face.
"I--well, I--do--some of it anyway." Billy Louise lifted a hand
spasmodically to her throat. This was digging deeper into the agonies
of life than she had ever gone before. "What was in the paper," she
whispered later, as if his eyes were drawing it from her by force.
"What was that? What did it say?"
"I--I--what difference does it make, what it said?" Billy Louise
turned imploring eyes upon him. Her breath was coming fast and uneven.
"It doesn't matter--to me--in the least. It--didn't say much.
I--can't tell exactly--" She was growing white around the mouth. The
horror of being compelled to say, out loud--and to him!
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