It was late when she finally rose from the stool and lighted the lamp
because her mother woke and called to her. Ward went out to turn the
horses into the stable and fasten the door. He should have sheltered
them two hours before. Billy Louise should long ago have made tea and
toast for her mother, for that matter. But when life's big, bitter
problems confront one, little things are usually forgotten.
They came back to everyday realities, though the spell which Ward's
impulsive unburdening had woven still wrapped them in that close
companionship of complete understanding. They played checkers for an
hour or so and then went to bed. Billy Louise lay in a waking
nightmare because of all the hard things she had heard about life.
Ward stared up into the dark and could not lose himself in sleep,
because he had opened the door upon the evil places in his memory and
let out all the trooping devils that lived there.
After that, though there was never any word of love between them, Billy
Louise, with the sure instinct of a woman innately pure, watched
unobtrusively for signs of those fits of bitter brooding; watched and
drove them off with various weapons of her own. Sometimes she
cheerfully declared that she was bored to death, and wasn't Ward just
dying for a game of "rob casino"? Sometimes she simply teased him into
retaliation. Frequently she insisted that he repeat the things he had
learned by heart, of poetry or humorous prose, for his memory was
almost uncanny in its tenacity. She discovered quite early, and by
accident, that she had only to shake her head in a certain way and
declaim: "Ah, Tam, noo, Tam, thou'lt get thy faring--In hell they'll
roast thee like a herring,"--she had only to say that to make him laugh
and repeat the whole of _Tam O'Shanter's Ride_ with a perfectly
devilish zest for poor Tam's misfortunes, and an accent which made her
suspect who were his ancestors.
Billy Louise meant only to wean him from his bitterness against Life,
and to convince him, by a somewhat roundabout method since at heart she
was scared to death of his aloofness, that he was not "old lady
Fortune's football" as he sometimes pessimistically declared. At
thirteen she had mixed him with her dreams and led him by difficult
trails to safety from the imaginary enemies that pursued him. At
nineteen she unconsciously mixed him with her life and led him--more
surely than in her dreams, and by a far more difficult trail, had she
only known it--safe away from the devils of memory and a distrust of
life that pursued him more relentlessly than any human foe.
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