"But I haven't met her yet!" I protested actively from my side of the
fireplace, in his room in the Beaumont Street nursing home.
Influenza had already gripped and released me, so that I was now in an
irritatingly robust state of health in which to visit a less fortunate
friend who had succumbed to its second wave; for that second wave was
more virulent and more treacherous than the first, mocking its victim
into partial convalescence and then, with a jeer and a snarl at the
ambuscaded wretch, fixing again upon the damaged lungs, so inexorably
that there was only the one release. And thus Howard Wentworth, who
was thought, even by himself, to have cheated the thing, in the end
died; not ten days after that afternoon when I had sat listening to
him, as he lounged in the happy _déshabillé_ of convalescence, and was
reminiscent about a girl called Fay Richmond.
The difference in our years had not prevented an acquaintance ripening
into a steady friendship. What I liked about Howard Wentworth was
that--unlike so many Englishmen of middle years--he was _not_ young
for his age. He was completely, sincerely, and normally over 45, which
was so refreshing of him among the crowds of 38's to 42's passing all
the way from Coombe to Sunningdale of a Sunday morning.... And it was
after our occasional dinners in his house in Upper Brook Street that
I would be interested by a solitary photograph in a plain sandal-wood
frame; one could not help contrasting its prominence on the grand
piano with the total absence of any other photograph in that austere
house--austere, in spite of that slight Chinese element of tapestry,
strange green horsemen and the like, which even the best of celibates
are nowadays growing to affect.
I used to wonder, quite shamelessly, who the girl with the sad, sincere
face was, and whether my host and she had loved unhappily; for the
girl's eyes were large and sad, and the firm set of her young mouth had
not tried to obey the exhortation to smile; which must, indeed, have
been given very hesitatingly, for there was a frightening sincerity
about her face. You felt, looking even upon the poor mockery of a
likeness, that you would have to dance very well indeed before you
begged the favour of such as she to dance with you. You imagined to
yourself fine arrogances behind those young eyes, to attract and appall
you in a venturesome moment....
But, of course, I could not ask my host about her, I had to wait;
until, on his reported convalescence, I went to see him in Beaumont
Street, and I suppose too obviously noticed the sandal-wood frame on
the dressing-table. He smiled:
"It always seemed to go with me," he said. "And I don't quite know why,
as I don't remember ever having made a point of it. But Briggs somehow
got into the habit of treating it like a toothbrush, so that it now
goes with me even for weekends. I don't think I've even really looked
at it for years and years.
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