"Do you think she is well now, and--and at peace?"
"No."
"What reason have you to doubt her well-being?"
"I cannot tell you."
The man looked at her searchingly, as if he would read her very soul,
and then turned away with a word of leave-taking,--"Good-night."
"Stay a moment. I have something to tell you. I do not know why I am
forced to speak to you of the last interview she had in this room, but I
must do so. Before she left,--on the night when she cried out in the
court-room,--you remember?"
Did he remember? Ah, Heaven! only too well he remembered the last words
she had ever spoken to him,--valiant words, full of love and protection.
"That night Mr. Galbraith came to see her. It was very late, and they
had a long conversation. I could only hear their voices from the next
room; and then she called me to her, and told us both all her sad
story,--all that had passed between you and her. She took all blame
upon herself, and would have made us both acknowledge that you had been
right and just in acting as you did."
"And was I not just?"
"Just, perhaps; but how ungenerous! What have you to do with justice?
You, who never painted till you painted her; you, who were so cold and
unfeeling till her smile made you human for a little time. Then your
own selfish egotism froze you again."
"Thank you for what you have told me, and good-by. I shall not see you
soon again. You were very good to her; bless you for it! Every one was
good to her,--every one but me, it seems."
"You speak as if she were dead."
He did not hear her last words. He was already out of earshot, taking
leave of his hostess.
When he was alone with the stars he could think better than in that
heated room, with that dear vine-crowned face before his eyes, with
Barbara’s voice in his ears. He saw how Barbara misjudged him. He knew
that most men and women would have held him as she did; and yet he had
thought that he was right. He had fought the good fight, and he had
conquered. What mattered it if all the world saw in him a monster of
selfishness? He had chosen poverty, hard work, and loneliness, when
wealth, worldly success, and a painless love might have been his.
Sybaris had been open to him; and he had turned his back upon the
perfumed island for an attic, a crust, and a mistress who demanded all,
and had yielded nothing but hope.
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