Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction; Seafaring life -- Fiction; Whaling -- Fiction
And Faith, steadfastly watching him, though her soul trembled, prayed in
her heart that she might find the way to bring Noll back to manhood
again; she endured his curses; she endured his harsh grip upon her
shoulders.... She waited while he flooded her with abuse.... And at the
end, when he was quiet for lack of words to say, she went to him and
touched his arm.
"Noll ..." she said.
He jerked away from her. "What?"
"Noll.... Look at me...."
He obeyed, in spite of himself; and there was such depths of tenderness
and sorrow in her eyes that the man's heart melted in him. "It's not
Mauger I'm sorry for," she told him. "It's you, Noll.... That you should
be so cowardly, Noll...."
His rage broke, then; he fell to fretting, whining.... She sat down; he
slumped like a child beside her. He told her he was tired, weary....
That he was worried.... That his nerves had betrayed him.... That the
drink was in him.... "They're all trying to stir me," he complained.
"They take a joy in doing the thing wrong.... They're helpless,
slithering fools.... I lost myself, Faith...."
He pleaded with her, desperately anxious to make her understand; and
Faith understood from the beginning, with the full wisdom of woman, yet
let him talk out all his unhappiness and remorse.... And because she
loved him, her arm was about him and his great head was drawn against
her breast long before he was done. She comforted him with touches of
her light hands upon his head; she soothed him with murmurs that were no
words at all....
The man reveled in this orgy of self-abasement. He groveled before her,
until she began to be faintly contemptuous, in her heart, at his
groveling. She bade him make an end of it....
"I was a coward, Faith," he cried. "You're right. I was a coward...."
"You are a man, Noll," she told him. "Stronger than other men, and not
in your fists alone. That is why I love you so...."
"I know, I know," he told her. "Oh, you're a wonder, Faith...."
"You're a man. Always remember that," she said.
He got up abruptly. He started toward the main cabin; and she asked:
"Where are you going, Noll?"
"Forward," he said. "I've wronged Mauger...." He was drunk with this
new-found joy of abasing himself. "I'll tell the man so. I'll right
things with him...."
And he added thoughtfully: "He cursed me. I don't want the man's hate.
I'll right things with him...."
She smiled faintly, shook her head. "No, Noll...."
He was stubborn. "Yes. Why not? I've...."
She said thoughtfully: "Noll, you're the master of this ship. Old
Jonathan Felt put her in your charge. You are responsible for her....
And that puts certain obligations on you, Noll. An obligation to be
wise, and to be prudent, and to be brave...."
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