The Secret Life: Being the Book of a HereticBisland, Elizabeth
Philosophy
The Secret Life: Being the Book of a Heretic
Bisland, Elizabeth
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"An end-of-the-century disease," say these full-fed, happy egotists
with lowered breath and eyes askance as they pass the haunted
house. "The mould of age has fallen upon him and made him mad." Yet
before the walls of Troy these two--the ghost-ridden, and the happy
egotist--battled for the glowing shadow of a woman whom neither man
loved nor desired. Achilles, blackly melancholy in his tent, heard the
old voice cry
"ἐν δὲ ἰῇ τιμῇ ἠμὲν κακὸς ἠδὲ καὶ ἐσθλός"
and disdains the greatness of life and the littleness of it. To
an iron inevitableness of fate he opposes only indifference and an
unbending courage. That which has been will be, and the end is death
and darkness. He has no illusions. He wars neither for love of country
nor love of Helen. If Troy falls nothing is gained. If the Greeks fail
nothing will be lost. In time all the sweat and blood shed upon Ilium's
windy plain will evaporate into a mere mist of uncredited legend. In
Achilles, the other self, the _alter ego_, is the stronger man. The
ghost of dead experience is as living as he.
Not so is it with Hector. All the passions of humanity are as new and
fresh to him as if none before himself had known them. He looks neither
forward nor back. The present is his concern. What though men have died
and been forgotten, he will not lessen his utmost effort, even to the
giving up of his life to save Troy. That is to him the one thing of
importance. So robust is his courage, his faith, his love, that the sad
spirit of memory within him cannot speak loud enough to make him hear.
There is no warring of dual personalities in him; he is aware of but
one--that rich momentary incarnation called Hector, more potent than
the memories and experiences of the thousands of lives that preceded
him, that gave him existence.
What though Achilles was right; what though both be but dust and legend
now--who would not choose that flash of being called Hector--Hector
dragged at the chariot-heel of Achilles--Hector with wife enslaved and
children slaughtered and his city's proud towers levelled with the
plain, rather than to have been the haunted victor, triumphing but not
triumphant; fighting without purpose or hope? The same end indeed came
to both, but one died as he lived, for what he thought a glorious end,
while the other too passed away--but with the cold knowledge that both
deaths were fruitless and vain.
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