mother, her brother, her sister, stirring finely within him. She hasn't
dreamed herself, he sees, of any real equality of transaction, of
relation with him at all; for if the others are under the dazzle, so
much the more under it is she. She sees--that is _he_ sees _that_ she
sees; he likes her to like him;--which is what gives her the sense of a
privilege she trembles up into the enjoyment of, astonished at herself
in her exquisite humility (this so touching to R.) even while doing so,
The great thing is that he gets into relation with them, and that by the
time he has done so the sense of how he needs it, the dim vagueness as
yet of how she may perhaps help him, has begun to work in him. He sees,
he feels, I make out, that she, as it were, understands him--though how
and why she does demands full specification; that in fine what affects
the others as his secret, as his queerness, as what they don't know what
to make of in him, does the reverse of putting _her_ off--it makes her
somehow feel that beneath or within all his dazzle he is an object for
pity, for pity "about which" she could perhaps do something. The ideal
thing for dramatic interest and sharpness would be that there is just
one matter in which, just one point at which, just one link with his
other identity by which, he betrays himself, gives himself away,
testifies supremely to his alienism, abnormalism, the nature of his
identity in fine; the ideal thing would be that, I say, and that it
should be definite and visible, absolutely catchable-in-the-act, enough
for her to seize it, come into possession of it, and yet not merely
terrify or horrify her: affect her in short, on the contrary, with but a
finer yearningness of interest. The ideal, as I say, would be that this
fact or circumstance should be tremendously right from the tone of the
"Screw" point of view, should be intensely in the note of that tone,
should be a concrete and definite thing. Find it find it; get it right
and it will be the making of the story. It must consist of something he
has to do, some condition he has to execute, some moment he has to
traverse, or rite or sacrifice he has to perform--say even some
liability he has to face and the occurrence of which depends somehow on
the state in which he keeps himself. I seem to see it, it glimmers upon
me; though I didn't think of it at first--I hadn't originally got as far
as it--it hovers before me though in the form of the only thing it _can_
be. When I call it a liability I seem to catch it by the tip of the
tail; seem to get a sort of sense of what it _may_ in a manner be. Let
me figure it out a bit, and under gentle, or rather patiently firm,
direct pressure it will come out. He is liable then say to glimpses of
vision of the other man, the one portrayed in the picture and whom he
had had the portentous passage with before going to the Ambassador; he
is liable, put it, to recurrences of a sense of that presence--which
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