After a pause he said, and she knew, with all the pain of it, what the
relief of speaking must be: “I guess at things. I always feel if she is
hiding things.”
“Perhaps you are only imagining.”
“I wish I could think it; but I know not. I know what is happening to
her.”
He was still wrenching away at the heather, tossing aside the purple
sprays with their finely tangled sandy roots. Suddenly he put his head
on his knees, hiding his face.
“Oh, Gavan! Oh, don’t be so unhappy,” Eppie whispered, drawing near him,
helpless and awe-struck.
“How can I be anything but unhappy when the person I care most for is
miserable--miserable, and I am so far from her?” His shoulders heaved;
she saw that he was weeping.
Eppie, at first, gazed, motionless, silent, frozen with a child’s quick
fear of demonstrated grief. A child’s quick response followed. Throwing
her arms around him, she too burst into tears.
It was strange to see how the boy’s reserves melted in the onslaught of
this hot, simple sympathy. He turned to her, hiding his face on her
shoulder, and they cried together.
“I didn’t want to make you unhappy, too,” Gavan said at last in a
weakened voice. His tears were over first and he faintly smiled as he
met Robbie’s alarmed, beseeching eyes. Robbie had been scrambling over
them, scratching, whining, licking their hands and cheeks in an
exasperation of shut-out pity.
“I’m not nearly so unhappy as when you don’t say anything and I know
that you are keeping things back,” Eppie choked, pushing Robbie away
blindly. “I’d much rather _be_ unhappy if you are.”
It was Gavan, one arm around the rejected Robbie, who had to dry her
tears, trying to console her with: “Perhaps I did imagine more than
there actually is. One can’t help imagining--at this distance.” He
smiled at her, as he had smiled at Robbie, and holding her hand, he went
on: “She is so gentle, and so lonely, and so unhappy. I could help her
out there. Here, I am so helpless.”
“Make her come here!” Eppie cried. “Write at once and make her come.
Send a wire, Gavan. Couldn’t she be here very soon, if you wired that
she must--_must_ come? I wouldn’t bear it if I were you.”
“She can’t come. She must stay with my father.”
All the barriers were down now, so that Eppie could insist: “She would
rather be with you. You want her most.”
“Yes, I want her most. But he needs her most,” said Gavan. “He is
extravagant and weak and bad. He drinks and he gambles, and if she left
him he would probably soon ruin himself--and us; for my mother has no
money. She could not leave him if she would. And though he is often very
cruel to her, he wants her with him.” Gavan spoke with all his quiet,
but he had flushed as if from a still anger. “Money is an odious thing,
Eppie. That’s what I want to do, as soon as I can: make money for her.”
He added presently: “I pray for strength to help her.”
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