Gavan often thought of that pathetic human clutch. So was the dream of
an atoning heaven built. It kept its pathos, even its beauty, for him,
when the whole tale ended in the world’s shrug and smile. He heard first
that Alice had become an emotionally devout churchwoman;--that lasted
for a year;--and then, alas! alas!--but, after all, the smile and shrug
was the best philosophy,--that she rode once more with the Nietzschian
lover. He had one short note from her: he would have heard--perhaps, at
any rate, he would know what to think when he did hear that she saw the
man again. And she wanted him to know from her that it was not as he
might think: she really loved him now--the other; not as she had loved
Gavan,--that would always be first,--but very much; and she needed love,
she must have it in her life, and she was lifting this man who loved
her, was helping his life, and she had broader views now and did not
believe in creeds or in the shibboleths that guided the vulgar. And she
was harming no one, no one knew. Life was far too complicated, the
intricacies of modern civilization far too enmeshing, for duty to be
seen in plain black and white. The whole question of marriage was an
open one, and one had a right to interpret one’s duty according to one’s
own lights. Gavan saw the hand of the new master through it all. Shortly
after, the death of Alice’s husband, killed while tiger-shooting, set
her free, and the new master proved himself at all events a fond one by
promptly marrying her. So ended Alice in his life.
There was not much more to look back on after that. His return to
England; his entering the political arena, with neither desire nor
reluctance; his standing for the town his uncle’s influence marked out
for him; the fight and the very gallant failure,--there had been, for
him, an amused interest in the game of it all. The last year he had
spent in his Surrey home, usually in company with a really pathetic
effigy of the past--his father, poor and broken in health, the old
serpent of Gavan’s childhood basking now in torpid insignificance, its
fangs drawn.
People probably thought that he had been soured by an initial defeat.
Gavan knew that the game had merely ceased to amuse him. What amused him
most was concentrated and accurate scholarship. He was writing a book on
some of the obscurer phases of religious enthusiasm, studying from a
historical and psychological point of view the origin and formation of
queer little sects,--failures in the struggle for survival,--their
brief, ambiguous triumphs and their disintegrations.
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