The Shadow of the PastYoung, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
Philosophy
The Shadow of the Past
Young, F. E. Mills (Florence Ethel Mills)
South African War, 1899-1902 -- Fiction; Triangles (Interpersonal relations) -- Fiction
"I don't think that moonlight walks and agreeable society are altogether
good for you, my dear. You grow discontented because every hour isn't a
perfect hour."
A faint smile curved her lips. She leaned farther out into the fragrant
darkness, and rested her elbows on the sill and her chin in her hands,
and gazed away towards the sea, and sighed.
"Life isn't made up of perfect hours," she reflected. "They are so
few--so very few--that's what makes them so good. He's discontented
too... Every one's discontented. We want things--oh! all sorts of
fine, impossible things--we keep on wanting them. And life goes on in
the same solid, stolid way: we live; we grumble; we die. _Sic
transit_..."
"No," she contradicted presently, "that isn't all. There _is_ a glory
concealed somewhere--the rainbow in the bubble, if we look long enough."
And after that she ceased to speculate on the problem of life, and fell
into a retrospective reverie and forgot the time.
Perhaps it is because women as a sex acquiesce too readily in the
conditions of life, whatever they may be, instead of making a determined
stand against what is unfavourable, that unfavourable conditions are
imposed upon them. Men do not submit, and results justify their
resistance--organised resistance is the charter of freedom. It is
taught that there is beauty in submission--well, there isn't.
Submission is lacking in dignity, and beauty is always dignified. There
is beauty in restraint, in control, in unselfishness; but none of these
qualities necessarily include submission--rule it out, therefore; its
day is done.
It was Matheson who gave Brenda Upton her first lesson in resistance.
He was very authoritative and firm and convincing; also--he was going
away. That was the strongest argument in favour of his demand. It was
a demand; there was nothing in the nature of a request about it. He
required her on the day before he left Cape Town to obtain, not an hour
off, but the entire evening. He wanted her companionship, wanted to sit
and talk uninterruptedly, as they had done on those other nights, and
not to be worried with considerations of time. He met her on the beach
during the hottest hour of the day, when Mrs Graham was enjoying her
siesta, and stated his desire. Brenda looked amazed.
"She'll not hear of it," she said.
"Of course not, if you make up your mind in advance that you won't ask
her," he returned.
A flicker of a smile showed in the dark eyes.
"If you only realised how difficult it is! She'll want it explained--
why I want to go, and all that."
"But that's cheek," he said, surprised. "Don't you see it's cheek. You
ought not to submit to that sort of thing. It isn't any business of
hers."
She laughed.
"It isn't... But it's always understood in the case of a girl--it's one
of the indignities we put up with."
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