Peter had left home to go to Oxford with a Rhodes scholarship, he found
himself unexpectedly endowed to the extent of over three million dollars
under the will of a late wealthy patient, so that he might, in the old
man's own words, "devote himself, without the fret and fever of earning
a livelihood as a practitioner, to the noble and limitless work of a
bacteriologist for the benefit of suffering humanity all over the
world," it was for the sake of his children that he offered up thanks.
With what immense pride he notified the authorities at Harvard that his
son was independent of the scholarship, which was free to send another
man to Oxford. With what keen pleasure he was able to buy Graham a seat
on the Stock Exchange, bring Belle out as a débutante and send his
little Ethel to the best possible school. These things he could do, and
did, but he could not and had never been able to do for them a better
thing than all these,--win their confidence, their deep affection and
their friendship. That gift had been killed in him. It could not be
acquired, taught or purchased, and he had always been as much out of
touch with his boys and girls as though he were divided from them by a
great stone wall. It had always been with them, "Look out! Here's
father!" instead of "Hello! Here's Dad!" His entrance into their
playroom was the signal for silence. The sight of his studious face and
short-sighted eyes and distrait, shy manner chilled them and reduced
them to quietude and self-consciousness and suspicion. If he had treated
them always as human beings, played with them, sat on the floor and
built houses with their bricks, thrown open the door of his study to
them, if only for half an hour every day, so that there might be no
possibility of its becoming a Blue Room; if he had, as they grew into
the habit of thinking and observing and remembering, told them about
himself and his own boyhood and in this way inculcated a mutual
interest, a desire to respond and open out; if, before the two boys had
gone to college he had had the courage to act on the earnest advice of a
friend and speak to them on the vital question of sex, give them the
truth as he so well knew it and warn them bravely and rightly of the
inevitable pitfalls that lined their youthful path, no brick wall would
have existed and he would have been their pal as well as their
father,--a combination altogether irresistible.
As it was Hunter Guthrie's wife, who loved him deeply and devotedly and
recognized in him a great man as well as a most unselfish father, was
obliged to lie in reply to his questions. She would rather have died,
then and there, than hurt him and bring down his house about his ears.
The sad and tragic part of it all was that she knew utterly that no
good, no change could be brought about by telling the truth. It was too
late.
VII
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