England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Gossip -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Villages -- Fiction
The girl had received no education in the scholastic sense. She had
escaped certain of the tawdry and superficial embellishments of
civilization. From her meagre mine of literature—meagre numerically,
but boasting intrinsic opulence—the girl had culled a strange medley of
facts and sentiments. Shakespeare had unbosomed to her a god-man
speaking to a precocious child. She had dreamed through _The Faerie
Queene_ and Tasso’s _Jerusalem Delivered_. History had bulked largely in
her calendar. She could have described to you the campaigns of Julian
the Apostate, the Pandects of Justinian, the life of Savonarola, done to
death in Medicean Florence. She was innocently wise, yet supremely
ignorant, nor had she ever entered a church. A pure pagan, religion had
never created in her a false and penitential humility, an erotic
brooding upon the supposed shortcomings of her own nature. She was
cheerfully positive, not a mawkish and emotional negation of sense. With
the ingenious idealism of a child she estimated the world generously and
boasted of no instinctive cynicism. Evil was a quality to be studied
vaguely and dispassionately in books. No harm had touched her heart, nor
had she learned to mistrust others. She had read of murder, adultery,
theft, and the like. She supposed these things to exist, yet even
intuition had not prompted her to project sin into the narrow and
visible world that girded her youth.
Fortunately for Joan Gildersedge, she had arrived at no candid
comprehension of her father’s character. He was the only old man
experience had as yet apportioned to her, and she could claim no
examples to contradict the habitual surliness of age. Zeus Gildersedge’s
perpetual plaint was that of dire poverty, a protestation that his
daughter had come to consider as inevitable as sunrise. True, he was
morose, shabby, hard, reticent, and unlovely. Yet these very
shortcomings had no air of strangeness for the girl. She had grown up
under the shadow of avarice and ethical annihilation, and had come to
consider such things among the natural phenomena of nature. She was
neither particularly happy nor particularly miserable. None of the
common experiences of girlhood had been hers. She had known neither love
nor sympathy, friendship nor pleasure, brimming life nor the lack of it.
And yet in the May of her girlhood she evidenced the example of a soul
evolving within itself, of an individuality bourgeoning spontaneously
under the sun, a stately plant starting into purple and red amid ruins
and solitude. Unconscious of the inevitable law working in her own
being, she followed her fashionless instincts, unknown of others,
unknown even of herself.
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