"Don't you know a better way of addressing me when we are alone?" she
asked, looking him full in the face.
"I do, but I mustn't"
"And last time--how about then?"
"It happened to be my birthday," he replied, "and I wanted a pretty
gift, so I presented that to myself."
"And to-day's my birthday," she laughed. "What will you present me
with?"
"Whatever my lady wishes."
"Call me comrade."
"Once or always?"
"Always."
"Just _say_ comrade, or be comrade, too?"
"Be, be, be," she cried. "The being is the chief thing."
"Agreed!" he said, cautiously sliding his right hand along the swaying
trunk.
"Agreed!" she said, and they shook hands on it.
"There's something else to be passed upon in connection with this," he
observed, and cleared his throat.
"What's that?"
"Is this comradeship to be accompanied or not to be accompanied by the
use of the first name?"
"Not," rejoined Lilly, thinking she had made a great sacrifice.
He took the prohibition at its face value and said obediently:
"As my comrade wishes."
Now her time had come. Lilly drew in a deep breath and said:
"I have something very serious to say to you, Mr. Von Prell."
He seemed to suspect evil.
"Ouch," he said, and bit his gloved thumb.
Lilly began. She would say absolutely nothing about that affair with
Katie, even though it was very dreadful, because what is to be forgiven
must also be forgotten. But if he thought the life he had been leading
ever since he had come to Lischnitz had remained a secret, he was
greatly mistaken. Even the scrubbing women laughed at him behind his
back. But he couldn't expect anything else, if he--and she recounted the
list of his sins, which, in spite of herself, had reached her ears from
the servants' hall.
Lilly was ashamed of what she said. She had meant to speak of entirely
different things--of the loftiness of human existence, of the greatness
of self-abnegation, of keeping oneself pure for the sake of genuine
feelings, of the mysterious spiritual union of the elect on earth, and
much more in the same strain. But when she saw him, as he sat there with
his back curved and his feet turned inward, causing bulbs to appear and
disappear on the soft leather of his riding boots where they covered his
big toes, nothing better occurred to her.
He did not interrupt her.
When she had concluded he maintained silence and occupied himself with
following the movements of an insect which was wriggling in the dark,
slimy water of the ditch.
"Have you nothing to say," she asked, "after I have reproached you with
such disgraceful behaviour?"
"What should I have to say?" he asked in turn. "My one claim to
celebrity is my being a man utterly devoid of moral fibre. Should I lose
that one claim, too?"
"If you have nothing within yourself to hold you up, lean on me," she
cried, glowing with eagerness. "Let me be your friend, your adviser,
your--"
"Foster-father," he suggested, and swished about the slime with his
crop.
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