Frontier and pioneer life -- West (U.S.) -- Fiction; Indians of North America -- West (U.S.) -- Fiction; Self-sacrifice -- Fiction
"Didn’t expect you back so soon," he said, after their strained
greetings. Henry seemed ill at ease. "Anything up?" he went on, as Jim
didn’t speak.
There was a moment’s portentous silence.
"Henry," Jim began, very calmly, "I’ve got to speak to you about certain
matters."
Henry, who had been shifting about in his chair, became motionless. His
clinched hands strained purple as he grasped the chair rail.
"About the—Yeomanry—work?" he half stammered while his eyes furtively
sought Jim’s face.
But Jim, who was thinking only of Diana and the difficulty of alluding
to Henry’s recent conduct, failed to notice his faltering words and
frightened expression.
"Oh no—no," he answered. "That’s going on all right, I hear." He
hesitated. Then with a quick breath he said, "It’s no use. I’ve got to
blurt out what’s troubling me. All the town is talking about your life;
its flagrance, its indecencies. Do you realize that it will soon reach
Diana, and that Lady Elizabeth is quivering under the strain of a
certain amount of knowledge which she is hiding, and is dreading further
disclosures?"
As Jim spoke he seemed to gain courage. "Don’t speak. Let me have my
say," he quietly commanded as Henry rose and attempted a blustering
manner. "I am the only man close to Lady Elizabeth and Diana. For Sir
Charles to become aware of this scandalous condition of affairs would be
disastrous. You know that perfectly. Now tell me, in God’s name, why
you married Di if you wished to lead this life?" He paused. "Can’t you
pull yourself together? It’s not too late. So far nothing definite is
known to either Di or Lady Elizabeth, and you may trust me." He rose
and crossed to Henry. "It’s all true, I suppose—what I’m accusing you
of—isn’t it?" There was no answer. He laid his hand on Henry’s
shoulder. "Tell me that it’s over and that you mean to go straight."
Henry turned. All his rebellion seemed to have slipped from him.
Suddenly he dropped into a chair and buried his head in his hands.
"I’m not fit—not fit, do you hear?—for Di. I married her because I
loved her. Yes, I did. But you don’t know what it is to fight daily
the devil’s desire. God! what do you know about it? I am in the meshes.
I have sunk lower and lower. You want to know about this woman the
world links with my disgrace. Well, I tried to break with her when I
married Di—I swear I did—but I can’t. She is like a dog that one has
grown attached to—you can’t fling it out of your life completely. There
has always been a wall between Diana and me. I tried in the beginning
to reach her, but she’s afraid of me—I know it."
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