Kitty, remarking that it was a shame to leave the now glowing fire,
had passed out of the room for a minute; she now returned, in her
slippers and nightgown. Her feet, she said, were still cold with
waiting on the pavement; she would say her prayers with them turned to
the fire. She knelt by a wicker chair, and set the red slippers on the
low kerb, their worn soles to the fire. Louie, still from the end of
the mantelpiece, watched her. At a slight sound she made Kitty turned
her head for a moment; then she put it on the cushion of the chair
again.
Yes, certainly Louie must have a wicked heart, or she would not have
looked on the kneeling woman as she did. She wondered what, texts
apart, Kitty could have to say to God. To pray--with her feet in a
warm place! Why, Louie mortified herself more for an absent man than
Kitty seemed to do before her Maker!... And even when she had stifled
the thought she still had no more than a negative compassion for
Kitty. She was not unsorry for her and her weakheadedness; beyond that
Kitty was not, or ought not to have been, her affair. What was her
affair was herself and what little remained of her youth. Kitty was
hardly more than a year or two older than she, but she looked a dozen
years older; Louie wondered whether her shoulder blades too would soon
resemble the set-squares in Billy's studio, whether her waist also
would seem a broken thing within empty looking folds....
Kitty continued to pray and to warm her feet. Louie, wondering what
her next snappishness would be when she rose from her knees again,
continued to watch her.
Then Kitty rose. She turned to Louie.
"By the way, did you brush that blue skirt of mine?" she said. "Oh,
very well, it doesn't matter now; perhaps I oughtn't to have asked
you; thank you; I can do it myself in the morning. Sorry I spoke."
Louie turned away.
These were the times when she could hardly tell what had possessed her
ever to have supposed that she would be able to keep watch and ward
over Kitty at all. Kitty was perfectly free to meet Miriam Levey or
anybody else she had a mind to meet. And why, she asked herself at
these times, should she not meet her? Where, hanging and such
moonshine apart, was the risk to Jim? Indeed, it seemed to Louie that
that story that seemed so to weigh on Jim was quickly becoming
altogether beside the mark. The whole venue of his difficulties was
rapidly shifting. What he had done had not been discovered and
probably never would be discovered; what he wanted now was, not to be
protected from remote and shadowy and nonsensical dangers, but to be
told how he was to be happy with the wife whom he had seen fit, in the
great heap of his wisdom, to keep in ignorance. Of course the remoter
danger need not be entirely forgotten, but this, or else Louie was
greatly mistaken, was what those scarce-heard questions on the night
of that long walk had really meant.
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