“He said his grandfather was a little Jew with long whiskers and made
everybody laugh,” added Kunz, seeking to curry the teacher’s favor.
“Hold your tongue!” Scher silenced the informer.
Then, again turning upon Albert, he grabbed him by his coat collar and
dragged him to the corner of the room, showering blows as he pulled the
boy after him.
“I only said this in jest to Christian and they began on me,” Albert
cried defiantly and broke away from the priest.
The master walked back to his desk, breathing hard and muttering
unintelligible syllables.
“Attention!” he presently called and rapped for order.
His blanched face, his piercing eyes, the skull-cap set awry on his
shaven crown, the lead-edged ruler in his hand, made the class realize
that he was no longer to be trifled with. There had been strange rumors
about the ferocity of the master, so when he gave the order to fall in
line for divine service every pupil had his left foot forward ready to
march.
Albert was the last in line. For although his mother had had him excused
from religious exercises, he always joined the class in the morning
prayers. Not that he prayed or participated in the singing of hymns, but
he loved the ceremonies of the cloister. There was something in the
smell pervading the old stone walls, in the reverberating tones of the
organ, in the soft light sifting in through the stained glass windows,
in the statuary and effigies—everything about the monastic church
filled him with mystery and with an indefinable sensuousness that, while
it repelled him, caught his fancy and stirred in his soul a longing he
was unable to fathom. The sound and color and scent and mystery of the
church aroused in him the same emotion he felt when reading about Greek
gods and goddesses. The chimes of the bells, the rich colors of the
clergy’s robes at high mass, the pealing organ and the melodies of the
choir—everything connected with the Franciscan cloister was so
different from his father’s church, which seemed so colorless and held
nothing to stir his imagination.
But no sooner did the chapel services commence than his mind began to
wander. The prayers were meaningless to him even at that early age. The
Catholic liturgy was distasteful to him. For boy that he was—scarcely
more than eleven—he had already reasoned on matters of faith, and he
had heard at home many a discussion about Voltaire and Rousseau, and of
Kant’s _Kritik der reinen Vernunft_, which was then debated in every
house of culture.
That morning more than on other mornings his brain was tortured by a
thousand cross-currents. So many ideas crowded in upon his wearied brain
that no single one was clear. They were all in confusion. The
inheritance, his classmates’ insults, the flogging—they all seemed fast
scudding clouds.
On his way out of school, Albert lagged behind under the high arches of
the cloister, rancor in his breast. Tears of mortification were in his
eyes.
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