Her sparring with him cheered him even though his face was still sad. He
was happy to hear her contradict him. They soon drifted to “Herman and
Dorothea” and he began to talk of Goethe. He wished to read her the poem
he had just finished but he wondered if she would divine who had
inspired it. He persuaded himself he did not want her to know this. And
while he was battling with the idea his hand traveled to his pocket and
he withdrew the neatly copied verses.
He watched her face eagerly as her eyes wandered over the sheet. She
seemed to be reading every line over and over in order to grasp their
meaning.
He had hoped she would make some allusion to the subject described. He
had also hoped she might ask him for permission to keep the poem, but
not a word. Her eyes only contracted a bit, a faint deepening of color
on her cheeks, and she had suddenly again grown distant. He felt as if
she had unexpectedly stretched out her arm and forbade him to come near
her. He was conscious of the awkwardness of her silence. Her lips were
closed tightly as she would not open them for fear a word might drop.
“You think poetry mere drivel, don’t you?” he said as he awkwardly
replaced the poem into his pocket.
Her eyelashes rose, a silent look, but without a responsive syllable.
“At least you think _my_ poetry is drivel,” he soon added.
There was the faintest smile playing around her lips. Her silence and
smile seemed to him a challenge. His dormant pride, his sublime
confidence in his powers, suddenly made him boastful. There was fire in
his eyes.
“You just wait and I’ll show you all that my poems are no drivel. I’ll
make my songs ring throughout the land. Every man, woman, and child
shall read them. You may all laugh at me now—and Rudolph may jest about
me—but I’ll make them all listen to me some day—”
He looked at her face but could read nothing in it. The next moment he
became conscious of his boasting and felt ashamed of his utterances.
“Oh, I am a fool,” he burst out as if talking to himself. “You think me
a braggart, don’t you?” He touched her hand and looked beseechingly at
her.
She looked at him intently for a bare second.
“I am very unhappy,—I’ve always been unhappy. I am a little child
crying for the moon, and the moon is so far, far away and doesn’t even
know that a poor child is crying for it.”
There were unshed tears in his eyes.
“Why do you make yourself so unhappy?” she asked and stirred, with a
frown on her pretty face.
But he did not answer. He noticed the approach of Uncle Leopold and Aunt
Betty.
“Why so serious?” Aunt Betty asked, smiling and at the same time
studying Hilda’s face.
“We were discussing poetry,” she answered, rising.
III.
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