Hilda was to him what the deities were to the Old Greeks, an object of
adoration. She was his Venus, a composite of all things beautiful, his
illusion. In his present state she was the only drop of sweetness in his
bitter cup. All his innate beauty-worship, and all his vision, was
centered upon her. What attributes were not hers his fancy supplied. And
the more hopeless his romantic fancy had become the more he craved her
love—he loved to run after the retreating horizon. At times he would
become vexed and swear that he would love her no more. Twice he had sent
her poems and she had not even acknowledged them, yet he would send her
another poem. It was a sweet lyric, the offspring of pure ecstasy. It
had leaped into being like a bud bursting into bloom. For days he had
hummed it to himself—stroked the petals—and finally dispatched it to
her. He wanted her to know his great sorrow. He was sure she would
understand him now. But like its predecessors, it remained
unacknowledged and unanswered.
A few days later on his return from the midday meal, Aaron Hirsch came
up to him, his perspiring face basking in a sunny smile. “I suppose you
have dined with the family today.”
His voice was ingratiating. Albert looked puzzled.
“Were you not invited? Your esteemed aunt was here and your lovely
cousin, Fräulein Hilda, and, I heard your esteemed uncle say they were
going to have a little family dinner.”
Aaron clasped his little beard as if he were shaking hands with a dear
friend as he proceeded, “Perhaps I should not have told you this, but
you know it hurts me—yes, it hurts me to see you unappreciated. Of
course, I did not dare say all there was on my mind but one day I said
to your esteemed uncle—‘Herr Banquier’, says I, ‘that nephew of yours
will yet do you great honor’, says I—these are the very words I said. I
hate to flatter you but I told him a thing or two about you that did you
no harm, for I know there are others—I’ll mention no names—there are
others who whisper other things in your esteemed uncle’s ear.” And with
a hushing movement of his hand he added, “You know the saying, ‘An ox
has a long tongue but cannot speak.’ One must guard his bread and
butter—I have a wife and seven children!” With a finger at his lips he
made a helpless grimace.
Albert’s face clouded. He did not discuss his personal affairs with
Aaron, though he often encouraged the little man’s monologues. Aaron
appealed to his sense of humor. His expressions, his gestures, his
comments, were mirth-provoking. Today he made no rejoinder. He wanted
Hirsch to leave him alone. His aunt and Hilda visited the bank and had
not taken the trouble to see him—Hilda, to whom he had sent his finest
lyrics only a few days ago!
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