But that very blamelessness of her son’s which Lady Adela wished
to safeguard was the ruin of her plan. For, as a matter of fact,
Lady Adela, by an accident of fate, rather than by any perspicacity
of intellect, was right in holding the mother’s usual superstition
of her son’s purity. Kingston Darnley, emotional and fastidious of
temperament, impressionable rather than passionate, curious and
idealistic, had hitherto not gone the way of all flesh. He had avoided
‘experiences’; and experiences had never sought him out. The sense
of personal decency remained strong upon him, and its strength was
reinforced by his old theories of morality, and by his strong tendency
towards mental, rather than physical passion. So he remained a
spectator in the great sexual battle of life.
And this onlooker attitude is not endearing even to the most holy and
maidenly of women. Women require to feel that a man is a man--that is,
they require to feel the thrill of his virility in the deep fibres of
their consciousness--to have their interest caught and held by the
proximity of the dominating male. It is only to the depraved woman
that the saint is of personal interest; and, even then, her interest
is depraved as her nature. The normal girl--though she has not the
faintest understanding what her wishes mean--needs to feel the possible
conqueror in the man she is talking to--at least, if he is to rouse her
curiosity and grow in her acquaintance. And this mysterious thrill,
of the man triumphant, Kingston was utterly unable to communicate.
Therefore his friendships with women were almost wholly impersonal. He
had none of that love-making power which experiences confer; had no
idea of how the blood is stirred and defiance stimulated; no gift for
that bold expression of physical approval which is so dear to even the
best of women. Women had to ask him if their frocks were pretty, and
if he liked their hats; even then his answers never went the fervent
lengths that their questions had been meant to open up.
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