Schuster came to that department-store when he was about thirty. Five
years passed; then ten—he was there yet—forty years old by now. Always
in a black cutaway and white tie, always with his hair parted on one
side, always with the same damned cheek. A floor-walker, respectable as
an English barrister, steady as an eight-day clock, a figure known to
every woman in San Francisco. He had lived a floor-walker; as a
floor-walker he would die. Such he was at forty. At forty-one he fell.
Two days and all was over.
It sometimes happens that a man will live a sober, steady, respectable,
commonplace life for forty, fifty or even sixty years, and then, without
the least sign of warning, suddenly go counter to every habit, to every
trait of character and every rule of conduct he has been believed to
possess. The thing only happens to intensely respectable gentlemen, of
domestic tastes and narrow horizons, who are just preparing to become
old. Perhaps it is a last revolt of a restrained youth—the final protest
of vigorous, heady blood, too long dammed up. This bolting season does
not last very long. It comes upon a man between the ages of forty and
fifty-five, and while it lasts the man should be watched more closely
than a young fellow in his sophomore year at college. The vagaries of a
sophomore need not be taken any more seriously than the skittishness of
a colt, but when a fifty-year-old bolts, stand clear!
On the second of May—two months and a day after his forty-first
birthday—Paul Schuster bolted. It came upon him with the quickness of a
cataclysm, like the sudden, abrupt development of latent mania. For a
week he had been feeling ill at ease—restless; a vague discomfort hedged
him in like an ill-fitting garment; he felt the moving of his blood in
his wrists and his temples. A subtle desire to do something, he knew
not what, bit and nibbled at his brain like the tooth of a tiny
unfamiliar rodent.
On the second of May, at twenty minutes after six, Schuster came out of
the store at the tail end of the little army of home-bound clerks. He
locked the door behind him, according to custom, and stood for a moment
on the asphalt, his hands in his pockets, fumbling his month’s pay. Then
he said to himself, nodding his head resolutely:
"To-night I shall get drunk—as drunk as I possibly can. I shall go to
the most disreputable resorts I can find—I shall know the meaning of
wine, of street fights, of women, of gaming, of jolly companions, of
noisy mid-night suppers. I’ll do the town, or by God, the town will do
me. Nothing shall stop me, and I will stop at nothing. Here goes!"
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