His wife soon entered; and we sat for a long time talking. I was
keenly moved by the relations between them; she displayed none of that
minute attention to his needs, none of that watchful anxiety which I
have often thought, tenderly lavished as it is upon invalids, must
bring home to them a painful sense of their dependence and
helplessness; and he too showed no trace of that fretful exigence which
is too often the characteristic of those who cannot assist themselves,
and which almost invariably arises in the case of eager and active
temperaments thus afflicted, those whose minds range quickly from
subject to subject, and who feel their disabilities at every turn. At
one moment he wanted his glasses to read something from a book that lay
beside him. He asked his wife with a gentle courtesy to find them.
They were discovered in his own breast-pocket, into which he could not
even put his feeble hand, and he apologised for his stupidity with an
affectionate humility which made me feel inclined to tears, especially
when I saw the pleasure which the performance of this trifling service
obviously caused her. It was just the same, I afterwards noticed, with
a young attendant who waited on him at luncheon, an occasion which
revealed to me the full extent of his helplessness.
I gathered from his wife in the course of the afternoon that though his
life was not threatened, yet that there was no doubt that his
helplessness was increasing. He could still hold a book and turn the
pages; but it was improbable that he could do so for long, and he was
amusing himself by inventing a mechanical device for doing this. But
she too talked of the prospect with a quiet tranquillity. She said
that he was making arrangements to direct his business from his house,
as it was becoming difficult for him to enter the office.
He himself showed the same unabated cheerfulness during the whole of my
visit, and spoke of the enjoyment it had brought him. There was not
the slightest touch of self-pity about his talk.
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