It would seem that women are more largely swayed by destiny than
ourselves. They submit to its decrees with far more simplicity; nor is
there sincerity in the resistance they offer. They are still nearer to
God, and yield themselves with less reserve to the pure workings of
the mystery. And therefore is it, doubtless, that all the incidents in
our life in which they take part seem to bring us nearer to what might
almost be the very fountain-head of destiny. It is above all when by
their side that moments come, unexpectedly, when a ‘clear presentiment’
flashes across us, a presentiment of a life that does not always seem
parallel to the life we know of. They lead us close to the gates of
our being. May it not be during one of those profound moments, when
his head is pillowed on a woman’s breast, that the hero learns to know
the strength and steadfastness of his star? And indeed will any true
sentiment of the future ever come to the man who has not had his
resting-place in a woman’s heart?
Yet again do we enter the troubled circles of the higher conscience.
Ah! how true it is that, here, too, ‘the so-called psychology is a
hobgoblin that has usurped, in the sanctuary itself, the place reserved
for the veritable images of the gods.’ For it is not the surface that
always concerns us—nay, nor is it even the deepest of hidden thoughts.
Do you imagine that love knows only of thoughts, and acts, and words,
and that the soul never emerges from its dungeon? Do I need to be told
whether she whom I take in my arms to-day is jealous or faithful, gay
or sad, sincere or treacherous? Do you think that these wretched words
can attain the heights whereon our souls repose and where our destiny
fulfils itself in silence? What care I whether she speak of rain or
jewels, of pins or feathers; what care I though she appear not to
understand? Do you think that it is for a sublime word I thirst when I
feel that a soul is gazing into my soul? Do I not know that the most
beautiful of thoughts dare not raise their heads when the mysteries
confront them? I am ever standing at the sea-shore; and, were I Plato,
Pascal, or Michael Angelo, and the woman I loved merely telling me of
her earrings, the words I would say and the words she would say would
appear but the same as they floated on the waves of the fathomless
inner sea, that each of us would be contemplating in the other. Let
but my very loftiest thought be weighed in the scale of life or love,
it will not turn the balance against the three little words that the
maid who loves me shall have whispered of her silver bangles, her pearl
necklace, or her trinkets of glass....
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