It is not a thing that comes from this earth of ours, and all
descriptions can be of no avail. They who would understand must have,
in themselves too, _the same point of sensibility_. If you have
never in your life felt the power of _your invisible goodness_, go
no further; it would be useless. But are there really any who have
not felt this power, and have the worst of us never been invisibly
good? I know not: of so many in this world does the aim seem to be the
discouragement of the divine in their soul. And yet there needs but one
instant of respite for the divine to spring up again, and even the
wickedest are not incessantly on their guard; and hence doubtless has
it arisen that so many of the wicked are good, unseen of all, whereas
divers saints and sages are not invisibly good....
More than once have I been the cause of suffering, he went on, even
as each being is the cause of suffering about him. I have caused
suffering because we are in a world where all is held together by
invisible threads, in a world where none are alone, and where the
gentlest gesture of love or kindliness may so often wound the innocence
by our side!—I have caused suffering, too, because there are times
when the best and tenderest are impelled to seek I know not what part
of themselves in the grief of others. For, indeed, there are seeds
that only spring up in our soul beneath the rain of tears shed because
of us, and none the less do these seeds produce good flowers and
salutary fruit. What would you? It is no law of our making, and I know
not whether I would dare to love the man who had made no one weep.
Frequently, indeed, will the greatest suffering be caused by those
whose love is greatest, for a strange timid, tender cruelty is most
often the anxious sister of love. On all sides does love search for the
proofs of love, and the first proofs—who is not prone to discover them
in the tears of the beloved?
Even death could not suffice to reassure the lover who dared to give
ear to the unreasoning claims of love; for to the intimate cruelty of
love, the instant of death seems too brief; over beyond death there
is yet room for a sea of doubts, and even in those who die together
may disquiet still linger as they die. Long, slowly falling tears
are needed here. Grief is love’s first food, and every love that has
not been fed on a little pure suffering must die like the babe that
one had tried to nourish on the nourishment of a man. Will the love
inspired by the woman who always brought the smile to your lips be
quite the same as the love you feel for her who at times called forth
your tears? Alas! needs must love weep, and often indeed is it at the
very moment when the sobs burst forth that love’s chains are forged and
tempered for life....
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