Siegmund continued to review the last hours. He had been so wondrously
happy. The world had been filled with a new magic, a wonderful, stately
beauty which he had perceived for the first time. For long hours he had
been wandering in another—a glamorous, primordial world.
“I suppose,” he said to himself, “I have lived too intensely, I seem to
have had the stars and moon and everything else for guests, and now
they’ve gone my house is weak.”
So he struggled to diagnose his case of splendour and sickness. He
reviewed his hour of passion with Helena.
“Surely,” he told himself, “I have drunk life too hot, and it has hurt
my cup. My soul seems to leak out—I am half here, half gone away.
That’s why I understand the trees and the night so painfully.”
Then he came to the hour of Helena’s strange ecstasy over him. That,
somehow, had filled him with passionate grief. It was happiness
concentrated one drop too keen, so that what should have been vivid
wine was like a pure poison scathing him. But his consciousness, which
had been unnaturally active, now was dulling. He felt the blood flowing
vigorously along the limbs again, and stilling has brain, sweeping away
his sickness, soothing him.
“I suppose,” he said to himself for the last time, “I suppose living
too intensely kills you, more or less.”
Then Siegmund forgot. He opened his eyes and saw the night about him.
The moon had escaped from the cloud-pack, and was radiant behind a fine
veil which glistened to her rays, and which was broidered with a
lustrous halo, very large indeed, the largest halo Siegmund had ever
seen. When the little lane turned full towards the moon, it seemed as
if Siegmund and Helena would walk through a large Moorish arch of
horse-shoe shape, the enormous white halo opening in front of them.
They walked on, keeping their faces to the moon, smiling with wonder
and a little rapture, until once mote the little lane curved wilfully,
and they were walking north. Helena observed three cottages crouching
under the hill and under trees to cover themselves from the magic of
the moonlight.
“We certainly did not come this way before,” she said triumphantly. The
idea of being lost delighted her.
Siegmund looked round at the grey hills smeared over with a low, dim
glisten of moon-mist. He could not yet fully realize that he was
walking along a lane in the Isle of Wight. His surroundings seemed to
belong to some state beyond ordinary experience—some place in romance,
perhaps, or among the hills where Brünhild lay sleeping in her large
bright halo of fire. How could it be that he and Helena were two
children of London wandering to find their lodging in Freshwater? He
sighed, and looked again over the hills where the moonlight was
condensing in mist ethereal, frail, and yet substantial, reminding him
of the way the manna must have condensed out of the white moonlit mists
of Arabian deserts.
“We may be on the road to Newport,” said Helena presently, “and the
distance is ten miles.”
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