She laughed, not caring in the least whither they wandered, exulting in
this wonderful excursion! She and Siegmund alone in a glistening
wilderness of night at the back of habited days and nights! Siegmund
looked at her. He by no means shared her exultation, though he
sympathized with it. He walked on alone in his deep seriousness, of
which she was not aware. Yet when he noticed her abandon, he drew her
nearer, and his heart softened with protecting tenderness towards her,
and grew heavy with responsibility.
The fields breathed off a scent as if they were come to life with the
night, and were talking with fragrant eagerness. The farms huddled
together in sleep, and pulled the dark shadow over them to hide from
the supernatural white night; the cottages were locked and darkened.
Helena walked on in triumph through this wondrous hinterland of night,
actively searching for the spirits, watching the cottages they
approached, listening, looking for the dreams of those sleeping inside,
in the darkened rooms. She imagined she could see the frail dream-faces
at the windows; she fancied they stole out timidly into the gardens,
and went running away among the rabbits on the gleamy hill-side. Helena
laughed to herself, pleased with her fancy of wayward little dreams
playing with weak hands and feet among the large, solemn-sleeping
cattle. This was the first time, she told herself, that she had ever
been out among the grey-frocked dreams and white-armed fairies. She
imagined herself lying asleep in her room, while her own dreams slid
out down the moonbeams. She imagined Siegmund sleeping in his room,
while his dreams, dark-eyed, their blue eyes very dark and yearning at
night-time, came wandering over the grey grass seeking her dreams.
So she wove her fancies as she walked, until for very weariness she was
fain to remember that it was a long way—a long way. Siegmund’s arm was
about her to support her; she rested herself upon it. They crossed a
stile and recognized, on the right of the path, the graveyard of the
Catholic chapel. The moon, which the days were paring smaller with
envious keen knife, shone upon the white stones in the burial-ground.
The carved Christ upon His cross hung against a silver-grey sky. Helena
looked up wearily, bowing to the tragedy. Siegmund also looked, and
bowed his head.
“Thirty years of earnest love; three years’ life like a passionate
ecstasy-and it was finished. He was very great and very wonderful. I am
very insignificant, and shall go out ignobly. But we are the same;
love, the brief ecstasy, and the end. But mine is one rose, and His all
the white beauty in the world.”
Siegmund felt his heart very heavy, sad, and at fault, in presence of
the Christ. Yet he derived comfort from the knowledge that life was
treating him in the same manner as it had treated the Master, though
his compared small and despicable with the Christ-tragedy. Siegmund
stepped softly into the shadow of the pine copse.
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