Almshouses -- Fiction; Older women -- Fiction; Villages -- England -- Fiction; Women cleaning personnel -- Fiction
It was a wonderful moment for Mrs. Clapham when she came back again
to her home, bearing her sheaves with her. The early morning had
been wonderful, too, but in a totally different way. It had been
splendid, of course, full of rapture and hope, but she knew now
that at the back of everything there had been a fear. That sudden
bout of laughter and tears had testified to the strain. The early
morning phase had been bought at its own price. But this moment was
all splendour without terror, glory without pain. Steeped in wonder,
it was yet perfect in satisfaction; shot with ecstasy, it was yet
peace....
Presently, perhaps, when the supreme moment had passed, she would
wish for that earlier phase all over again. _That_ would seem the
supreme moment to her, looking back, the most poignant, the most
dramatic, the most worth having because of its thrills. She would
forget the scorch of the chariot of fire in which she had left the
earth, and only remember the sweep of it as she ascended to heaven.
Nevertheless, this was the really great hour of her beautiful day,
and she recognised it while she had it. There is no moment like that
in which one runs home through a shining world to hide behind a shut
door with the glad fulfilment of an innocent dream.
With it, however, came the realisation of what she would have felt if
things had happened the other way about, and even the thought of it
was so terrible that it turned her faint. Reaching the rocking-chair,
she dropped into it with a thankful sigh, and the anything but
thankful chair uttered a protesting creak. But the horror soon passed
and the glory returned, so that she hardly knew whether the gold
motes dancing in the kitchen were made by the sun, or whether the
whole world had turned golden in essence because of the splendour in
her brain.
With smiling lips, and half-closed, tear-wet eyes, she sat rocking
herself to and fro, while the overburdened chair uttered its almost
human shrieks of protesting rage. But she was too happy to notice it,
too happy to move; too happy even to get herself the cup of tea which
she dearly craved. She knew vaguely that her head ached as well as
her back and her bad knee, but these also were beyond notice. The
most they could do was to force her to own, chuckling, that it was
a good thing miracles didn’t happen every day of the week. But then
she did not want them to happen every day; she did not want them ever
to happen again. Once was all she had asked for in the whole of her
life, and that once was proving itself most gloriously enough.
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