England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction
Yet it need not have ended as it had done for Ralph, but Ralph was a
sentimentalist. He had loved the old uncle like a son, and had always
made excuses for not cutting adrift from Seabourne. Uncle John was
growing old and needed him in the business; Uncle John was failing--he
had been failing for years, thought Elizabeth bitterly, a selfish,
cranky old man--Uncle John begged Ralph not to leave him, he had a
presentiment that he would not last much longer. Ralph must keep an eye
on the poor old chap. After all, he'd been very decent to him. Ralph
wanted to know where he'd have been without Uncle John.
Always the same excuses. Had Ralph never wanted a change; had he never
known ambition? Perhaps, but such longings die, they cannot live on a
law practice in Seabourne and an ailing Uncle John; they may prick and
stab for a little while, may even constitute a real torment, but
withstand them long enough and you will have peace, the peace of the
book whose leaves are never turned; the peace of dust and cobwebs. Ralph
was like that now, a book that no one cared to open; he was covered with
dust and cobwebs.
At forty-five he was old and contented, or if not exactly contented,
then resigned. And he had grown timid, perhaps Uncle John had made him
timid. Uncle John was said to have had a will of his own--no, Elizabeth
was not sure that it was all Uncle John, though he might have
contributed. It was Seabourne that had made Ralph timid; Seabourne that
had nothing beyond. Seabourne was so secure, how could it be otherwise
when it had nothing beyond; whence could any danger menace it? Ralph
clung to Seabourne; he was afraid to go too far lest he should step off
into space, for he too must feel that Seabourne had nothing beyond.
Seabourne had him and Uncle John had him. It was all of a piece with
Uncle John to leave a letter behind him, begging Ralph to keep the old
firm together after he was dead. Sentiment, selfish sentiment. Who cared
what happened to Rodney and Rodney! Even Seabourne wouldn't care much,
there were other solicitors. But Ralph had thought otherwise; the old
man had begged him to stick by the firm, Ralph couldn't go back on him
now. Ralph was humbly grateful; Ralph felt bound. Ralph was resigned
too, that was the worst of it. And yet he had been clever, Elizabeth had
heard it at Cambridge; but Cambridge that should have emancipated him
had only been an episode. Back he had come to Seabourne and Uncle John,
Uncle John much aged by then, and needing him more than ever.
When they had met at Seabourne, her brother had been a shock to her. His
hair had greyed and so had his skin, and his mind--that had greyed too.
Then why had she stayed? She didn't know. There was something about the
comfortable house that chained you, held you fast. They were velvet
chains, they were plush chains, but they held.
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