So came the New Year, while the City revelled. And then, at last this
holiday of suffering was over. Jonas was gone. Quincy returned to his
room. And it had no positive reaction upon him. Simply, he was glad
that certain things were gone. Passively, he accepted the present. He
entered upon a period of calm, of seeming apathy. But this welcome state
was destined to prove meretricious. Quincy had not really attained
serenity or resignation, after his turbulent experience. His soul,
rebuffed and bruised, was not yet content to retire within itself and
glut its own demands. There was a long road, ere this, for Quincy. For
the present, unconsciously of course, he delighted in his breathing
space and with great readiness forgot the past with its poignant measure
of prophetic warning. But, in truth, his soul was merely crouching ere
it leaped out once more. It had not been discouraged. Within it, was too
much vitality for that. It was lying low, only to attempt a higher
flight, once a new object had been scented.
When Quincy was thirteen, he discovered Rhoda.
Jonas was still away--at college. Rhoda had done with school and the
idea of college for a girl was not part of the mental outfit which the
Burt family had brought along from Harriet, Long Island. Adelaide
approached sixteen. Her educational trials were not yet over. Marsden
was now literally a man. A certain surface of his mind had grown hard
and polished, so that he was clever and ingenious; able to make bearable
the largely mental life to which his body had condemned him. The depths
of his mind had died, so that he was bitter in spirit, visionless, and
well nigh content. He derived the same satisfaction from his dominion in
the household that a normal man might glean from his part in a
community. He drew joy from his ability to judge aloof; he created a
sort of life from the business of poising the lives of others.
Some time, he had been watching Quincy. But the period of their talks
was not yet ripe. For the present, he was a cold, hard, cynical
obstruction upon Quincy’s path--a creature that could sear and wither
with a word, an intimate that exploited his foreknowledge with the evil
unconcern of an outsider. Quincy hated him, feared him. For he was
powerful beyond his parents when it became his listless fancy to ordain.
And his mother loved him with a warmth that was thrice cursed, since it
withdrew a part of her from Quincy, since it served as a common interest
to veer her toward his father and since in the last fact, the love she
did bestow upon him seemed somehow tainted and imperfect. Marsden had
not yet been _created_ in Quincy’s life. He stood there as a bitter,
impersonal condition--an element, a natural detail. In this way, a pagan
peasant might regard a mountain that stood north above his land--the
womb of storms, the treasury of frosts, a thing under no circumstance to
be explored.
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