When she came, as soon as he saw her walking along the platform looking
for him while he stood with his hand on Ginny’s colt’s bridle, even
before she had spoken a single word, even then he knew what had
happened--the uplifted radiance of her face announced it.
But she did not tell him at once. On the drive home, in the dark
December afternoon, he was tense with apprehension; once or twice he
ventured some questions about the Shakers, but she put them aside with a
curious gentleness, her voice a little distant and monotonous; her words
seemed to come only from the surface of her mind. When he lifted her out
of the sleigh at their own door he felt a subtle resistance in her whole
body; and when, in the hall, he put his arms about her and tried to kiss
her, she drew back sharply and said:
“No!--PLEASE!” Then, as they stood there in the chilly entry, she burst
into a passionate explanation: she had been convicted and converted! She
had found her Saviour! She--
“There, there, little Tay,” he broke in, sadly; “supper is ready, dear.”
He heard a smothered exclamation--that it was smothered showed how
completely she was immersed in a new experience, one of the details of
which was the practice of self-control.
But, of course, that night they had it out.... When they came into the
sitting-room after supper she flung the news into his pale face: _she
wished to join the Shakers_. But she must have his consent, she added,
impatiently, because otherwise the Shakers would not let her come.
“That’s the only thing I don’t agree with them about,” she said,
candidly; “I don’t think they ought to make anything so solemn
contingent upon the ‘consent’ of any other human being. But, of course,
Lewis, it’s only a form. I have left you in spirit, and that is what
counts. So I told them I knew you would consent.”
She looked at him with those blue, ecstatic eyes, so oblivious to
his pain that for a moment a sort of impersonal amazement at such
self-centredness held him silent. But after the first shock he spoke
with a slow fluency that pierced Athalia’s egotism and stirred an
answering astonishment in her. His weeks of vague misgiving, deepening
into keen apprehension, had given him protests and arguments which,
although they never convinced her, silenced her temporarily. She had
never known her husband in this character. Of course, she had been
prepared for objections and entreaties, but sound arguments and stern
disapproval confused and annoyed her. She had supposed he would tell her
she would break his heart; instead, he said, calmly, that she hadn’t the
head for Shakerism.
“You’ve got to be very reasonable, ‘Thalia, to stand a community life,
or else you’ve got to be an awful fool. You are neither one nor the
other.”
“I believe their doctrines,” she declared, “and I would die for a
religious belief. But I don’t suppose you ever felt that you could die
for a thing!”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account