From his mother he inherited other features: the straight nose, the
haughty mouth, the dimpled chin. These points of resemblance had
justified Madame de Claviers in asserting that he was her living
portrait--to those who were not aware! Landri was aware now, and he
shuddered at the thought that the intimate guests at Grandchamp had
certainly detected in him the unmistakable tokens of his descent. He was
humiliated in the most secret depths of his being. He had prided
himself, throughout his young manhood, upon not being the prisoner of
his caste. He had treated as delusions at least, if not as prejudices,
the uncompromising convictions of the head of the house of Grandchamp
concerning the nobility; and he had a strange sensation of degradation
in facing the alloyage of his origin, the blending of other inherited
characteristics with the purely aristocratic maternal inheritance. This
feeling was most illogical. Had he not proposed, did he not propose, to
marry a woman even less aristocratic than a Charles Jaubourg? But does
logic ever govern the spontaneous reactions of our pride?
This indescribable impression of essential degradation was intensified
by another, more profound and more generous: the affection and
admiration that he had always entertained for M. de Claviers made it
almost unendurable to think that the sacred bond of parentage between
him and that loving, loyal, superior man was broken. Even while
struggling against his father's despotism, he had always been so proud
that he was his father! And he was not his father! What a heart-breaking
thing! It was as if, the very root of his being having suddenly been
laid bare, he were bleeding in every fibre that attaches the soul to the
body.
And he walked on and on, aimlessly, forgetting the time, regardless of
his surroundings, until, at the end of the afternoon, he found himself a
long way from his starting-point, at the far end of the Ménilmontant
quarter, beyond the cemetery of Père La Chaise. The approaching
twilight warned him at last that the day was passing. He looked at a
street sign and saw that he was at the corner of Boulevard Mortier and
Rue Saint-Fargeau. He consulted his watch. It was almost five o'clock.
The train he was to take started at a quarter past five. His servant was
waiting for him at the Gare de l'Est. He had just enough time to make
it, in a cab.
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