Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
And Stephen must slink upstairs thoroughly deflated, strangely unhappy
and exceedingly humble, and must tear off the clothes she so dearly
loved donning, to replace them by the garments she hated. How she hated
soft dresses and sashes, and ribbons, and small coral beads, and
openwork stockings! Her legs felt so free and comfortable in breeches;
she adored pockets too, and these were forbidden—at least really
adequate pockets. She would gloom about the nursery because Collins had
snubbed her, because she was conscious of feeling all wrong, because she
so longed to be some one quite real, instead of just Stephen pretending
to be Nelson. In a quick fit of anger she would go to the cupboard, and
getting out her dolls would begin to torment them. She had always
despised the idiotic creatures which, however, arrived with each
Christmas and birthday.
‘I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!’ she would mutter thumping their
innocuous faces.
But one day, when Collins had been crosser than usual, she seemed to be
filled with a sudden contrition. ‘It’s me housemaid’s knee,’ she
confided to Stephen, ‘It’s not you, it’s me housemaid’s knee, dearie.’
‘Is that dangerous?’ demanded the child, looking frightened.
Then Collins, true to her class, said: ‘It may be—it may mean an
’orrible operation, and I don’t want no operation.’
‘What’s that?’ inquired Stephen.
‘Why, they’d cut me,’ moaned Collins; ‘they’d ’ave to cut me to let out
the water.’
‘Oh, Collins! What water?’
‘The water in me kneecap—you can see if you press it, Miss Stephen.’
They were standing alone in the spacious night-nursery, where Collins
was limply making the bed. It was one of those rare and delicious
occasions when Stephen could converse with her goddess undisturbed, for
the nurse had gone out to post a letter. Collins rolled down a coarse
woollen stocking and displayed the afflicted member; it was blotchy and
swollen and far from attractive, but Stephen’s eyes filled with quick,
anxious tears as she touched the knee with her finger.
‘There now!’ exclaimed Collins, ‘See that dent? That’s the water!’ And
she added: ‘It’s so painful it fair makes me sick. It all comes from
polishing them floors, Miss Stephen; I didn’t ought to polish them
floors.’
Stephen said gravely: ‘I do wish I’d got it—I wish I’d got your
housemaid’s knee, Collins, ’cause that way I could bear it instead of
you. I’d like to be awfully hurt for you, Collins, the way that Jesus
was hurt for sinners. Suppose I pray hard, don’t you think I might catch
it? Or supposing I rub my knee against yours?’
‘Lord bless you!’ laughed Collins, ‘it’s not like the measles; no, Miss
Stephen, it’s caught from them floors.’
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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