Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
In spite of the fact that he had obviously been waiting to intercept
Anna, he now spoke quite lightly. Collins and the footman must go, he
told her. As for Stephen, he had had a long talk with her already—Anna
had better just let the thing drop, it had only been childish temper—
Anna hurried upstairs to her daughter. She, herself, had not been a
turbulent child, and Stephen’s outbursts always made her feel helpless;
however she was fully prepared for the worst. But she found Stephen
sitting with her chin on her hand, and calmly staring out of the window;
her eyes were still swollen and her face very pale, otherwise she showed
no great signs of emotion; indeed she actually smiled up at Anna—it was
rather a stiff little smile. Anna talked kindly and Stephen listened,
nodding her head from time to time in acquiescence. But Anna felt
awkward, and as though for some reason the child was anxious to reassure
her; that smile had been meant to be reassuring—it had been such a very
unchildish smile. The mother was doing all the talking she found.
Stephen would not discuss her affection for Collins; on this point she
was firmly, obdurately silent. She neither excused nor upheld her action
in throwing a broken flower-pot at the footman.
‘She’s trying to keep something back,’ thought Anna, feeling more
nonplussed every moment.
In the end Stephen took her mother’s hand gravely and proceeded to
stroke it, as though she were consoling. She said: ‘Don’t feel worried,
’cause that worries Father—I promise I’ll try not to get into tempers,
but you promise that you won’t go on feeling worried.’
And absurd though it seemed, Anna heard herself saying: ‘Very well
then—I do promise, Stephen.’
CHAPTER 3
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Stephen never went to her father’s study in order to talk of her grief
over Collins. A reticence strange in so young a child, together with a
new, stubborn pride, held her tongue-tied, so that she fought out her
battle alone, and Sir Philip allowed her to do so. Collins disappeared
and with her the footman, and in Collins’ stead came a new second
housemaid, a niece of Mrs. Bingham’s, who was even more timid than her
predecessor, and who talked not at all. She was ugly, having small,
round black eyes like currants—not inquisitive blue eyes like Collins.
With set lips and tight throat Stephen watched this intruder as she
scuttled to and fro doing Collins’ duties. She would sit and scowl at
poor Winefred darkly, devising small torments to add to her
labours—such as stepping on dustpans and upsetting their contents, or
hiding away brooms and brushes and slop-cloths—until Winefred,
distracted, would finally unearth them from the most inappropriate
places.
‘’Owever did them slop-cloths get in ’ere!’ she would mutter,
discovering them under a nursery cushion. And her face would grow
blotched with anxiety and fear as she glanced towards Mrs. Bingham.
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