Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
She said in her very perfect English: ‘Is it not a great thing that
France has done? From every town and village in France has come money to
build that church at Montmartre. Many people have purchased the stones
of the church, and their names are carved on those stones for ever. I am
very much too hard up to do that—and yet I would like to own a small
stone. I would just say: “From Wanda,” because of course one need not
bother about the surname; mine is so long and so difficult to
spell—yes, I would ask them to say: “From Wanda.”’
Jamie and Barbara listened politely, yet without sympathy and without
comprehension; while Mary must even smile a little at what seemed to her
like mere superstition. But Stephen’s imagination was touched, and she
questioned Wanda about her religion. Then Wanda turned grateful eyes
upon Stephen and suddenly wanted to win her friendship—she looked so
reassuring and calm sitting there in her peaceful, book-lined study. A
great writer she was, did not every one say so? And yet she was surely
even as Wanda . . . Oh, but Stephen had got the better of her fate, had
wrestled with her fate so that now it must serve her; that was fine,
that was surely true courage, true greatness! For that Christmas none
save Mary might know of the bitterness that was in Stephen’s heart,
least of all the impulsive, erratic Wanda.
Wanda needed no second invitation to talk, and very soon her eyes were
aglow with the fire of the born religious fanatic as she told of the
little town in Poland, with its churches, its bells that were always
chiming—the Mass bells beginning at early dawn, the Angelus bells, the
Vesper bells—always calling, calling they were, said Wanda. Through the
years of persecution and strife, of wars and the endless rumours of wars
that had ravaged her most unhappy country, her people had clung to their
ancient faith like true children of Mother Church, said Wanda. She
herself had three brothers, and all of them priests; her parents had
been very pious people, they were both dead now, had been dead for some
years; and Wanda signed her breast with the Cross, having regard for the
souls of her parents. Then she tried to explain the meaning of her
faith, but this she did exceedingly badly, finding that words are not
always easy when they must encompass the things of the spirit, the
things that she herself knew by instinct; and then, too, these days her
brain was not clear, thanks to brandy, even when she was quite sober.
The details of her coming to Paris she omitted, but Stephen thought she
could easily guess them, for Wanda declared with a curious pride that
her brothers were men of stone and of iron. Saints they all were,
according to Wanda, uncompromising, fierce and relentless, seeing only
the straight and narrow path on each side of which yawned the fiery
chasm.
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