Now the fabric of his fortunes similarly collapsed, and he found all
that had looked so healthy was flourishing upon foundations of
putrescence and decay. No canker had eaten into his life and ruined
it; no sudden misfortune had grown and turned what was fair to what
was foul; but, in ignorance, with immense labour, he had built upon
stark fraud and filth and his own dishonour; he had founded his life
on falsehoods and sins; he had worshipped his God in unconsciousness
of the truth; he had been drawn to closer and deeper intercourse with
Christ through the cold-blooded villainy of a man. His ambitions,
aims and future schemes were all rooted and flourishing in his own
betrayal; and his God had suffered this appalling thing to come to
pass, and denied him one dim hint or whisper of the truth. At the
crucial moment, when Woodrow made him his heir, the Almighty had
blinded Daniel's native instinct and not permitted even a suspicion
of reality to be associated with the gift. All had combined against
him; all had cozened his understanding: his wife, his master, his
God. Man and Heaven had united to deceive him; and man, knowing the
truth, had watched his sustained devotion and faith; and Heaven,
knowing the truth, had accepted his worship and thanksgiving, had
suffered his delusion to continue, had planned the horror of the end.
Every wind of the night came to him with a new grief; every scent of
the night brought a new agony; every voice of the night drove home
the truth with an added torment. He looked up at the stars and asked
them what he should do. From force of habit he knelt and called upon
God. But he remembered that, in this matter, God was on the side of
the enemy. Therefore he rose and went forward without prayer.
By morning he had walked many miles along the foothills of the Moor;
and then, after five o'clock, he went down to a railway station,
waited for the first train, and travelled to Plymouth. He suffered
himself to rest there for a time; and he washed and ate. Henceforth
he was concerned with Hilary Woodrow and not with John Prout. He
perceived clearly that the old man, who would have sacrificed his
soul for Hilary, had helped his wife and Woodrow against him. He
retraced events of many journeys. He thought of the days that he had
been from home, and of the time spent by his wife at Dawlish. He
forged a long and dreadful chain of horrible deceits that had never
existed. He began to imagine an evil story which occupied a place in
time long after the actual treachery was over and done. Upon the
fact of his betrayal he built a mighty monument; yet this memorial
had itself scarcely any existence in fact. That, however, mattered
little. The truth without addition had been enough for Brendon.
Day was turned to night in his mind, and he longed for the real
night, that he might accomplish his purpose. About noon he took
train to Dawlish, and reached it before three o'clock.
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