The prospect was not very reassuring. Night was falling and I did
not care for a walk in the country with an individual who gave every
evidence of being demented.
He led me, however, directly to the garden-like grave of Madame Cernay,
whence the mingled fragrance of the flowers rose to us, though the
gathering dusk obscured their colours. There, my companion became lost
in his memories. Forgetting my presence and his own pride, he permitted
at intervals a kind of wail of agony to escape him. Yet I was not
greatly affected by this manifestation of despair, because, dreading
some more dangerous happening, I devoted my attention to a close watch
upon his movements. When he had grown calmer, he was to astonish me
still more. We were walking back up the avenue through the night, when
at last he decided to speak:
“I was at fault just now,” he said. “Forgive me. That story which you
were telling my daughter--I don’t know where you found it.”
“In Tennyson,” I hastened to reply, in order to clear myself of my
unknown offence.
“It caused me much pain.”
“You?” I asked.
“It is so much like my own,” he replied.
This, then, was the explanation of his distress. I had attributed it to
madness but it was really only the expression of a protracted agony,
of a secret that had been kept too long and was now perhaps ripe for
confidence. He continued to accuse himself in broken phrases.
“It was I who killed her, do you understand? Some murderers are less
cruel. They only strike once. They do not kill gradually, by a slow
fire. She forgave me. And I--instead of expiating my crime, I am
preparing to commit another. Oh, I hoped, I dared, to take up my life
again. Since my return here, the past has gripped me, possessed me
absolutely again, and I feel a savage pleasure in coming back to it--”
Without any farewell, he turned away, in what direction I could not
tell. Night enveloped us. I lost sight of him almost immediately, and
returned to my quarters at Sylve-Benite, surprised and dumbfounded by
such an unexpected revelation, a revelation which the future was so
strangely to fulfil.
* * *
After a farewell day of fairly good shooting I prepared to leave
Sylve-Benite, despite the peace and quiet that I had enjoyed there,
and I was collecting my luggage when Raymond Cernay called upon me.
He charged up at a full gallop, on M. Mairieux’s horse, and the hardy
animal must have been pushed beyond reason for he was badly blown. It
was five or six days after our singular meeting. Cernay noticed my
preparations and demanded abruptly:
“You are leaving.”
“As you see,” said I.
“Where are you going?”
“I am going home.”
“Is it necessary?”
“We must always go home in the end.”
“But nobody is waiting for you?”
“No, nobody.”
“Very well, then, I will take you with me.”
“Where?”
“To the chateau. You can stay there several days, as long as you wish.
Your luggage is ready. Come.”
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