The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 12 (of 32)Wesley, John
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The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 12 (of 32)
Wesley, John
Methodist Church; Theology -- Early works to 1800; Theology -- History -- 18th century
This his last illness may be dated from _February 24, 1758_, a few
days after his arrival at _Bristol_, in his way to _Ireland_. After
preaching twice as usual, and studying hard all day, he was seized with
violent pains in his head, and in all his bones. He however rose the
next morning at his usual time, and preached; retiring afterwards to
his daily exercises; but still feeling the pressure of the disorder,
“My body says he, trembled with weakness, but my soul was happy in God!”
He avoided yielding to his pains, and proceeded in his Lord’s work as
usual, for several days: till at length he was constrained to take his
bed. Here he was confined for several days; and taking exact notice,
(as his disorder admitted) of the state of his heart, according to
his constant custom, and growing something better, he wrote from the
fulness of his heart his state and sentiments as follows,
“_Saturday March 4._ (The day he took his bed) good is thy will O
Lord. Thy counsels of old are faithfulness and truth. Thou reignest
in righteousness; though no man can know love or hatred, by all that
is before him, _Ecclesiastes ix._ Thou givest account of thy ways to
none; but assurest the righteous, that _it shall be well with him_; and
that thy corrections are with this design, that we may partake of thy
holiness. I am in thy hands, O my God: work thy perfect will in me, and
sustain me in this trial. I call upon thee in the day of trouble; and
believe thou wilt deliver me, and that I shall glorify thee, and praise
thee yet more and more. Thus (as he concludes) I went to bed very ill,
and happy.
“_Sunday 5._ My illness continued and encreased. I had not much
consolation, but was graciously preserved from buffetings. _Monday 6._
Continued in soul as yesterday only with more examination. _Tuesday 7._
I had scarcely any alteration in body or soul. I cried to God, and
he heard me; but the sweet and usual returns of prayer were not.
_Wednesday 8._ God gave me to weep much for the sins of my whole
life. _Thursday 9._ My pains and pleasures, corporal and spiritual,
were as the day before. _Friday 10._ I had more consolation of soul.
_Saturday 11._ The spirit of prayer was plentifully imparted to me: I
could plead the mercies, and promises, and merits of God my Saviour,
and his love and joy were more plentifully poured into my soul.
_Sunday 12._ I had gracious intimations of the good will of God towards
me in this sickness.
“_Monday 13._ I was able to read and pray, and advise friends to love
God and seek him in good earnest, while they had strength. _Tuesday 14._
I was better still, and prayed for the increase of holy love in the
children of God, and for the propagation of the faith in all nations.”
Besides this daily minuting down the state of his soul, he on a general
review (as was his constant manner on these occasions) of the whole,
has, among several other particulars, the following observations,
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