The World Before Them: A Novel. Volume 2 (of 3)Moodie, Susanna
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The World Before Them: A Novel. Volume 2 (of 3)
Moodie, Susanna
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"I confide more willingly in you, Dorothy, because, like me you
have realized the great agony of having loved and lost. Yes, I loved as
my own soul a young girl as pure and artless as yourself. She held a
dependent and subordinate situation, and was far beneath me in rank. But
beauty is a great equalizer, and I never for a moment considered that
noble creature my inferior. I sought her love, and won her whole heart,
but circumstances prevented me from taking her by the hand, and publicly
acknowledging her as my wife to the world, and I sacrificed to the
Moloch of wealth and power her happiness and my own, and blasted for
ever the only wealth she possessed, a pure and unsullied name."
"Oh, my lord, how could you do so?"
"Ah! how indeed. I ask myself a thousand times a-day the same torturing
question. The fear of what people would say, Dorothy--the dread of
poverty--of loss of caste--for I was not at that time an elder son, made
me a coward and a fool. I left her--left the woman I adored to struggle
through the difficulty in which I had placed her, single-handed and
alone.
"I was appointed _attaché_ to a foreign embassy, and left England for
several years, and was only recalled to inherit my present title, and
all the large property that fell to me by the death of an uncle, and
that of my eldest brother. No longer deterred from doing her justice by
the base fear of losing these advantages, I sought her in her old home,
my mother having dismissed her in disgrace from her service. Here I
found that her cruel grandmother had driven her forth into the streets,
and all traces of her had been lost. For seventeen years I have sought
her sorrowing through the world, to make reparation for my selfishness
and cruelty; but her fate remains a mystery, and the only clue that I
have obtained of her probable history, fills my mind with shame and
remorse. I can no longer wipe this foul stain from her memory if I
would.
"You look at me in surprise and horror, Dorothy. Can you still think me
a good and great man. See how you have been deceived in your
estimate of me."
Tears were in the Earl's eyes and on his pale cheeks. Dorothy looked
down to hide her own.
"My lord," she said, in a soft low voice, "you have been very
unfortunate, and perhaps are less guilty than you think yourself, and
oh, I pity you with my whole heart."
Involuntarily she took his hand and pressed it to her lips, and he
caught her in his arms and clasped her to his heart, his tears falling
over her like rain.
"My dear child, my only friend, God bless you for your kind sympathy. Is
there any hope for a sinner like me?"
"My lord," she whispered, "there is more joy in Heaven over one sinner
that repenteth, than over ninety and nine just persons that need no
repentance. Receive this great truth into your heart, and you will find
the peace you need." She spoke with such earnestness, that a gleam of
hope shot into the sad eyes of the Earl.
"Dorothy, I will think over your words."
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