The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): EvaWassermann, Jakob
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The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): Eva
Wassermann, Jakob
German fiction -- Translations into English
One day Lorm complained of the disorganization in his life, the
frightful waste of his substance. It was at table, and he was answered
by empty phrases. But Judith, when she succeeded in having him to
herself later, took up the subject again. She persuaded him to describe
the persons whom he held responsible, and expressed doubts of their
trustworthiness. She disapproved of arrangements that he had made, gave
him advice that he found excellent, and reproached him with the neglect
of which he confessed himself guilty. “I wade in money and suffocate in
debt,” he sighed. “In twenty years I’ll be an old man and a poor devil.”
Her practical insight filled him with naïve admiration. He said to her:
“I’ve been told once in a while that there are such women in the world
as you, but I never believed in their existence. All I’ve ever seen
were full of empty exactions and florid emotions.”
“You’re unjust,” she replied and smiled. “Every woman has some field in
which she has character and firmness, but the world pays no attention.
Then, too, our relation to the world is usually a false one.”
“That is a wise remark,” said Lorm in a satisfied voice. He was a miser
of praise.
From now on he loved to have her draw him into talk concerning his
little needs and worries. She examined him in detail, and he was glad
to submit. He brought her the bills rendered him by his tradespeople.
“They capitalize your inexperience, and cheat you,” was Judith’s
judgment of the situation. It made him feel ashamed.
“Have you been lending money?” she asked. It appeared that he had. For
years and years he had loaned considerable sums to numerous parasites.
Judith shrugged her shoulders. “You might just as well have thrown the
money away.”
Lorm answered: “It’s such a bother when they come and beg, and their
faces are so unappetizing. I give them what they ask just to be rid of
them.”
In this wise their conversations moved wholly within the circle of the
prosaic things of daily life. But it was precisely this that Edgar
Lorm had missed and needed. It was as new and as moving to him, as the
discovery of a rapt and ecstatic soul to a bourgeois becoming aware of
poetry and passion.
Judith had a dream. She lay quite naked beside a slippery, icy fish.
And she lay with it from choice, and snuggled close to its cold body.
But suddenly she began to beat it, for its cool, damp, slippery scales,
which had a gleam of silver and were opaline along its back, suddenly
inspired in her a witch-like fury. She beat and beat the creature,
until she lost consciousness and awoke exhausted.
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