The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): EvaWassermann, Jakob
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The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): Eva
Wassermann, Jakob
German fiction -- Translations into English
“Calm yourself, Bernard,” said Christian, and stooped to pick up
some blossoms that had fallen on the floor. And as he put back the
flowers into the vase, there came to him the vision of Amadeus Voss’
white face, showing his bleeding soul and paralyzed by desire and
renunciation, even as it was turned toward the fat, morose Walloon
woman. “I don’t comprehend your stubbornness,” he continued. “Why won’t
you let me be? Don’t you know that I bring misfortune to all who love
me?”
Crammon was startled. Despite Christian’s equivocal smile, he felt a
sudden twinge of superstitious fear. “Idiotic!” he growled. He arose
and took his hat, and still tried to wring from Christian a promise for
the evening. At that moment a knock sounded at the door, and Amadeus
Voss entered.
“I beg your pardon,” he stammered, and looked shyly at Crammon, who had
at once assumed an attitude of hostility. “I merely wanted to ask you,
Christian, whether we are going to leave. Shall the packing be done? We
must know what to do.”
Crammon was furious. “Fancy the scoundrel taking such a tone,” he
thought. He could hardly force himself to assume the grimace of
courtesy that became inevitable when Christian, quite hesitatingly,
introduced them to each other.
Amadeus bowed like an applicant for some humble office. His eyes behind
their lenses clung to Crammon, like the valves of an exhaust pump. He
found Crammon repulsive at once; but he thought it advisable not only
to hide this feeling but to play the part of obsequiousness. His hatred
was so immediate and so violent, that he was afraid of showing it too
soon, and stripping himself of some chance of translating it into
action.
Crammon sought points of attack. He treated Voss with contempt, looked
at him as though he were a wad of clothes against the wall, neither
answered him nor listened to what he said, deliberately prolonged his
stay, and paid no attention to Christian’s nervousness. Voss continued
to play the part he had selected. He agreed and bowed, rubbed the toe
of one of his boots against the sole of the other, picked up Crammon’s
stick when the latter dropped it; but as he seemed determined not to
be the first to yield, Crammon at last took pity on the silent wonder
and torment in Christian’s face. He waved his well-gloved left hand
and withdrew. He seemed to swell up in his rage like a frog. “Softly,
Bernard,” he said to himself; “guard your dignity, and do not step
into the ordure at your feet. Trust in the Lord who said: Vengeance is
mine.” He met a little dog on his path, and administered a kick to it,
so that the beast howled and scurried into an open cellar.
Across the table Christian and Voss faced each other in silence. Voss
pulled a flower from the vase, and shredded its calyx with his thin
fingers. “So that was Herr von Crammon,” he murmured. “I don’t know why
I feel like laughing. But I can’t help it. I do.” And he giggled softly
to himself.
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