The Yale Literary Magazine (Vol. I, No. 3, April 1836)Various
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The Yale Literary Magazine (Vol. I, No. 3, April 1836)
Various
College students' writings, American -- Connecticut -- New Haven -- Periodicals; Yale University -- Periodicals
old man came tottering round an angle of the building; and seeing me,
he ran to my feet and cowered down like a whipped hound seeking for
protection.
“Curse them for inhuman wretches”--groaned, or rather screamed the
old man--“They chain me up like a vile beast--a dog to murder me.
They drag me into that black den and shut me there, and say I’m
crazed--mad. What is mad? Who?--O! yes,--my children, they broke my
heart--one went from me, and the other--Ah! save me--save me”--His
keepers came in sight, and in their hands were the scourges they had
been using, the sounds of which had rung in my ears so appalling. “O!
don’t--don’t--I’ll follow--you won’t whip me, will you master--I’m
good--good”--and the old man actually knelt down, and like a beast
licked the feet of his tormentors. I fell to the earth senseless.
‘A long and doleful night followed--a blank--a vacancy; so long,
it seemed ten thousand eternities; so gloomy, it seemed as if the
darkness was consolidated. O! what a night is that, when the helm
of reason breaks--the unshackled faculties wander forth--and the
maddened powers invoke images of horror, only to madden themselves the
more by gazing at them! All that is grand--all that is terrible--all
horrible, loathsome, fearful images, that the mind had ever while
healthy repulsed, then come back on the heart like vultures that have
been scared awhile from their prey, whose fasts have only whetted
their ungorged appetites. At one moment, I seemed borne through the
Eternal void chained to the lightnings; at another, I was dashing
downward towards a tremendous barrier of cavernous rocks, and their
serrated pinnacles seemed waiting to embrace me. Now I was tossed on
billows of fire, and a tremendous surge would hurl me on a jagged
precipice; then with its reflux suck me down through unimaginable
depths, and the hot fires scorched me as they shot into my brain.
Again I heard peals of laughter, and howlings of formless, shapeless
beings that hovered around me; they had snakes and basilisks twisted
round their foreheads, and the flames that issued from their forked
mouths seemed to burn into my very soul. Then came the sense of a
release--the gasping, choking, horrible consciousness, that you are
struggling on the confines of two worlds, and not knowing which is to
be yours--whether earth or death shall have you. Suddenly a fountain
seemed tossing its cool spray over me--the fires that withered up
my brain went out--the fiends that howled about me passed away--the
subtlest life began to dance through my veins--and I awoke!
My first thoughts were true to their mark, and my first words,
“Mother, lives she? The rest--father, brother--God of Heaven! why was
I reserved for it?”
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