Suddenly, some roisterer, passing along the street with his
companions, laughed a loud, reckless, half drunken, laugh that sounded
in the quiet darkness with startling clearness.
The woman sprang back from the flowers as though a poisonous serpent,
hidden in their fragrant beauty, had struck her. With a swift look of
horror on her white face she glanced fearfully about the room.
Again the laugh sounded; this time farther down the street.
The woman sank into her chair, trembling with a nameless fear. To her,
that laugh in the dark had sounded as the laughter of the crowd that
day when she was forced so close to the outcast women who were in the
hands of the police.
"But those women," argued the frightened woman with herself, "sell
themselves to all men for a price."
"And you," answered the heart of her womanhood, "and you, also, will
sell yourself to one man, for a price. The wealth of womanhood
committed to you--all the treasures that you have guarded so
carefully--you will sell now to this good man for the price that he
can pay. If he could not pay the price--if he came to you empty
handed--would you say yes?"
"But I will be true to him," argued the woman. "I will give myself to
him and to him only as wife to husband."
"You are being false to him already," replied her woman heart, "for
you are selling yourself, not giving yourself to him. You are planning
to deceive him. You would make him think that he is taking to himself
a wife when, for a price, you are selling to him--something higher
than a public woman, it is true--but something, as true, very much
lower than a wife. What matter whether the price be in gold and silver
or in property and social position--it is a price. Except he pay you
your price he could not have you."
And what, thought the woman, what if--after she had crossed the
threshold with this good man--after she had entered with him into the
life that lay on the other side that door--what if, then, that other
one should come? What if the one for whom her empty heart should have
waited were to come and stand alone before that door through which she
could not go back? And the children--the dear children of her
dreams--what of them? Had not her unborn children the right to demand
that they be born in love? And if she should say, "no," to this
man--if she should turn once more away from the open door, through
which he would ask her to go with him--what then? What if that one who
had delayed his coming so long should never come?
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