Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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Oswald need not have feared. Berger was sitting in the centre of the
darkened room, all the curtains being closed, before a table covered
with books. He was resting his head in both hands, and seemed to sleep,
for he did not stir even when Oswald stepped up close to the table.
Oswald did not dare wake him. He remained standing by the table and
looked at the poor sufferer, his eyes filling unconsciously with tears.
What havoc these few months had made with the face once so proud, so
full of energy; the dark curling hair was grizzled; the massive brow,
hewn apparently out of the live granite, appeared even more powerful
and imposing, thanks to the increased baldness at the temples. A full
beard, formerly an aversion to Berger, now flowed, silver-gray, from
cheek, lips, and chin, so that the end nearly touched the table. His
hands, once so plump and carefully kept, had become so thin, so
transparent! And what a costume! A blue smock-frock, instead of the
black coat which was never allowed to show a particle of dust; a
coarse, ill-fitting shirt, instead of the fine, dazzling white linen
upon which he formerly insisted. On the table a worn-out slouched hat
and a stick, which had evidently not long ago formed part of a hedge of
thorns, in place of the smooth silk hat from Paris, and the clouded
cane with its gold head! If the outer man could change to such an
extent, what a revolution must have taken place in the lowest depths of
the soul!
Berger stirred. He raised his head, opened his eyes, and looked at
Oswald. His eyes were deep and clear, and looked larger than usual; he
did not start nor betray astonishment, wonder, or fear, at the
unexpected sight.
"I had but just now dreamt of you, Oswald," he said, rising, with a low
voice, from which all former sharpness and energy seemed to have
departed.
Oswald could restrain himself no longer. He sobbed aloud and threw
himself into Berger's arms. Now only, lying on the bosom of this man,
he felt all his sufferings fully, as he thought; now only, in the arms
of this man who had endured so much, he fancied he need not be ashamed
any longer of the tears which his heart had bled when his eyes refused
to weep.
Berger held him in his arms, as a father holds his son who comes home
from a far country in which he has fed with the swine.
"Weep on," he said, "weep! Tears relieve a young, overflowing heart.
When I was as young as you, I wept as you do; now my eyes have
forgotten how to weep."
"Berger, dear, dear Berger!"
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