Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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"I knew I should see you again. I expected you long ago. I did not
think you would stand it so long in the great desert outside. Weep on!
Tears are the price with which we buy our souls back again, when we
find what a wretched bargain we had made before we knew better. Ere we
give up life we have to learn that it is better not to live. Some learn
that sooner, others later. Be glad that you are one of those who during
the bitterness of the Sansara have already a foretaste of the sweetness
of the Nirvana."
He left Oswald, and took his hat and cane from the table.
"Come!" he said.
Oswald was so deeply moved by this scene that the recollection of
Berger's odd costume only suggested to him the conviction how utterly
impossible it would be to speak to such a man of such things. He would
as lief have reminded a mother who was weeping over the body of her
child of some defect in her toilet, a bow out of place, or a ribbon
which had come loose.
They passed through the long passages, down the broad stone staircase
and out into the court-yard. As they went across the latter, the young
man who was sitting on the bench came up to them and repeated the
question which he had before asked of Oswald:
"I certainly have the honor to address the Emperor of Fez and Morocco?"
"No!" replied Berger, "The emperor is not coming; you may rely upon
it."
"Is not coming!" repeated the young man; and his pale face became still
paler, and his eyes wandered restlessly to and fro; "is not coming! how
do you know that?"
"Because, if he should come it would not be for your happiness, as you
imagine, but for your final ruin. Why do you wish him to come? To bring
you gold, which you will gamble away? and jewels, which you will lavish
upon your mistresses; to afford you the means of continuing a life
which you ought to thank God on your knees you have escaped from--if
you believe in any God? What appears to you a star of promise, is a
will-o'-the-wisp from the moors. Do not trust in its glimmer--it lures
you hither and thither, and each time deeper into the moor. Turn
resolutely back from it! I tell you once more, the emperor is not
coming! and it is fortunate for you that he does not come!"
"Do you know his majesty so intimately?" stammered the young man.
"Very intimately," said Berger, and a peculiar smile played on his
features, "only too intimately. I also was misled by his majesty. You
expect from his promise money and lands. I was promised--never mind
what; and thus he promises everybody something else, in order to fool
and trick everybody. The conviction that his majesty's promises are
nothing but wind--that is the beginning of wisdom, and the last
conclusion of wisdom into the bargain."
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