Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
The Colorado Rocky Mountains were my vision of paradise. Their immense
proportion, viewed against the surrounding pines, deluged my senses
with an all-encompassing wholeness and an aura of well-being. No other
place produced such an effect within me; I felt no spiritual rift with
the universe and no emotional rift with myself.
I could not understand the stop-and-start tourists who drove through
the park simply to justify their bumper stickers; or those who, at a
scenic turn off would jump out, peer over the railing and pronounce,
"Nothing special here" if there were no chipmunks to feed. They wanted
artificial, invented forms of entertainment. If there were no buttons
or knobs to pull, no tour guide, nothing that spoke to them through a
speaker or took them on a ride, the place had no significance.
Whirlwind tourists rarely ventured onto any of the trails, or if they
did, seldom walked further than one mile. Since all social amenities
had to be packed in, few sight-seers prepared themselves for adversity
of even the kindest temperament. They generally had no poncho, wore
heeled shoes or sandals, carried no energy food, and of course, no
water. Once their mistakes were evident, they wasted no time retracing
their steps, trundling down the trail with parched mouths agape and
pouting loudly for the lifestyle they had momentarily misplaced. Norm
and I generally encountered these people on our return from a long
hike; since our trek had begun early in the morning, we avoided the
afternoon rain and completed our hike long before the sun dipped behind
the mountains, washing the surrounding land in darkness. When I saw a
"typical" tourist attempting a hike while toting a radio or blandly
surveying the scenery, I realized how different I was... and how
thankful I was concerning the former statement. I knew also, that if
it were not for the differences in people, I could not revel in the
solitude that was mine to enjoy.
Our days in the mountains were excellent. The rain never lingered,
leaving the nights clear and cold. We often returned to the park after
supper to drink in the darkness and listen to the wind dance in the
pines. Apart from society, but for an occasional passing automobile,
we felt delivered, not deprived. Cool winds swept through the
silhouetted trees and curled between tight crevasses, producing a
melodious rhythm which conjured the impression of silence. The noise
of society was stilled in tranquility.
By daylight we roamed the trails, packing our essentials and my camera.
I never hoped to confine the actual beauty of nature on film, but
toted my camera as a pictorial diary.
Photographs had become my favorite souvenir for their dimensional forms
recalled statements attesting to one's destination... they were almost
like eyes into the past.
Aug. 8, 1980... Sandbeach Lake (a 4 mile hike). It was gorgeous. Got
sunburned. Felt great...not tired at all.
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