Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
After a week of emotional survival, I boarded a jet bound for
California. With all my expenses paid, I was to spend several weeks at
the Santa Monica home of my aunt and uncle. Never having flown, I was
excited when the journey commenced and the jet tore a path into the
hazy summer sky. I found flying to be a delightful affair, especially
during the circulation of complimentary pop and peanuts. Silvery
mounds of cloud formations glistened against the sun's blinding light.
Across the blanket of white, another jet raced toward a secret
destination. Corn and wheat fields made a quilted pattern of the
landscape. Rectangular fields slowly gave in to circular ones as the
jet scorched westward; irrigation. The Rocky Mountains pierced a
jagged line through low-flying clouds that skirted each side of the
airliner, and the fertile land disappeared where the soaring mountains
grew from the earth. The jet flew past that which nature took
centuries to create as if it was insignificant and worth little more
than a fleeting glimpse. The mountains were now behind us. As I
peered out of the tiny window, the land became increasingly arid and
fewer roads disrupted the sea of creeping grass and sage brush.
As we began our descent, I felt my ears clog in rebellion to the slight
change in air pressure. Swallowing and trying to induce yawns, I
cleared my ears continuously until the jet was hanging lazily above
city streets and buildings. Not until the aircraft touched down on the
runway was I aware of the speed at which the jet was moving; the grass
was at first a green blur against outstretched silver wings, and we
rushed on as if powered by an unstoppable force. Then I perceived that
the forward thrust was steadily reined until the huge jet slowly
strolled along the landing strip and taxied toward the Los Angeles
terminal. Within the passage of hours I had been transported across
2000 miles; it certainly did not take a long time to leave a place.
Memories and heartaches, however, came along for the ride.
This was my vacation, and I tried to avoid thinking about that which
had transpired the week earlier. While my aunt and uncle showed me the
sights in their part of California, my parents decided to take a
vacation of their own. They, too learned that miles did not alleviate
worry. Worry cannot be left at home. It is weightless baggage that
one is obliged to carry.
After several days of eventful tours, relaxing on my aunt's patio
swing, and tempting their aged and extremely bored cat into playing
with a ball of yarn, I received a phone call from my mom. They had
returned from their small trip and found a note from Norm saying that
he and Tracy were married. I was ecstatic. My fears had never
materialized.
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