It had come to that night when there were but three days left. I had
eaten my meal, and had got into my bed; I liked that time best, because
of the stillness, and because I liked to feel, poor doomed mortal that I
was, that all the great city slept quietly about me, with every man and
woman in it each with their separate trouble and their separate grief. I
lay a thing apart, condemned to die; and there was in my mind the
curious feeling then that it was strange that the needs of the world
were such that a fellow-man had been able to say that I should die, and
that other fellow-men were appointed to watch me that I did not escape,
and that yet another fellow-man had the dreadful task of killing me,
just as I had killed Gavin Hockley. Lying on my bed in my cell I thought
of all that, and watched the men who were seated silently near me. And
then I fell asleep, quite peacefully; and in that sleep I dreamed a
dream.
The end wall of my cell was down, and it seemed as though I looked out
beyond it over green fields, on to a place I knew. It was just as though
one sat in some strange theatre, and saw through where the wall had gone
to some scene beyond. At either side of the stage of that theatre, as it
were, sat the motionless warders; the auditorium was my cell. And then I
thought that I got up from my bed, and passed straight between them, and
out to the freedom of the woods and the fields; leaving them motionless,
and even looking behind for a moment, and seeing the empty bed there in
which I had so recently lain.
I think I knew then, unconsciously, that I must go back to that cell,
and that the vision would fade; I am certain that I thought that. But
for the moment I was free; I had passed into some strange country, and
yet a country I knew. Then, just as in the fairy tales, I seemed to turn
a corner, and found myself suddenly in the wood in which I had met
Barbara. And it was the most natural thing in the world that she should
come towards me out of the wood, smiling, as I had seen her smile
before.
It was only when I reached her, and held her hands, and looked into her
eyes, that I realized in my dream that she knew what had happened; there
were tears in the dear eyes I loved.
"You are sorry for me?" I said, holding her hands. We seemed to be quite
alone in the wood, and the sun was shining, just as it had shone on that
day I met her first.
"I don't know what to say to you," she replied. "Of course I understand
everything about it, and why you did it; I need not ask you about that.
It was done for my sake--but oh, the pity of it!"
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