The beautiful thing about it all was that she was so brave and so
strong--braver and stronger than I was. I remember that she comforted me
as she might have comforted a child--called me, again and again, her
dear, dear boy; whispered again and again that they should not kill me.
I was content just to hold her, and to listen to her voice; I thought of
nothing else, save of the hopelessness of it all; for I felt that I was
wiser than she was, and that I knew the thing to be inevitable. I don't
know what power she had exercised, or in what strenuous fashion she had
set to work to gain this last interview with me; I only remember with
gratitude that they left us alone, and that we sat side by side on the
low bed, and talked in whispers. We were both so young that perhaps they
relaxed the rules a little, and felt that it did not matter.
"I was far away--abroad--and I had no news," she began.
"Yes, I know," I replied. "And you travelled night and day since then to
reach me."
"How did you know that?" she demanded quickly. And then I told her of
the dreams I had had, and how I had met her in the wood, and how I had
known from her own lips that she was coming to me.
She looked at me strangely, passing one hand over her forehead, as
though by that mechanical action to clear her mind. "That is very
wonderful, Charlie," she said, when I had told her the words she had
used. "I said to myself, over and over again, while the slow trains
crawled across the countries, and the slow ship ploughed across the
sea--I said again and again those words to myself: 'I will reach
you--God willing--before they kill you!' That is very wonderful."
"Nothing is wonderful with us," I replied, with a quick laugh that made
the men turn and look at me curiously.
"When I heard what had happened, I scarcely knew at first what to do;
and then I knew that I must come back--that I must see you, even if
everything else proved hopeless. Lucas would have stopped me; he said it
was no affair of mine, and that I must not--should not mix myself up in
it. So I got away at night, and came straight to you; it was the least
that I could do. Now you are to tell me everything that has
happened--everything!"
"You will have heard already, Barbara dear, all that has happened--and
why I killed him. It was a quarrel--a matter of money."
She looked at me with a world of understanding in her eyes. "That is
what you have told every one; it is not what you can tell me," she said.
"Think, dear"--she laid her hand on my arm, and her lips were quivering,
although she spoke bravely enough--"you are to die to-morrow; by the
love there is between us, you must not let me believe that you killed a
man for such a thing as that. Unless you would kill my soul for ever."
"I can tell you nothing else," I replied as steadily as I could.
"Perhaps I was not, after all, half so good as you in your love for me
believed."
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