New England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories
The tokens of illness were all put away. Her mother's bedroom lay cold
in an unsmiling order. The ticking of the clock emphasized the
inexorable silence of the house. Once Lucy Ann thought she heard a
little rustle and stir. It seemed the most natural thing in the world,
coming from the bedroom, where one movement of the clothes had always
been enough to summon her with flying feet. She caught her breath, and
held it, to listen. She was ready, undisturbed, for any sign. But a
great fly buzzed drowsily on the pane, and the fire crackled with
accentuated life. She was quite alone. She put her hand to her heart,
in that gesture of grief which is so entirely natural when we feel the
stab of destiny; and then she went wanly into the sitting-room, looking
about her for some pretense of duty to solace her poor mind. There
again she caught sight of herself in the glass.
"Oh, my!" breathed Lucy Ann. Low as they were, the words held a
fullness, of joy.
Her face had been aging through these days of grief; it had grown more
and more like her mother's. She felt as if a hand had been stretched
out to her, holding a gift, and at that moment something told her how
to make the gift enduring. Running over to the little table where her
mother's work-basket stood, as it had been, undisturbed, she took out a
pair of scissors, and went back to the glass. There she let down her
thick gray hair, parted it carefully on the sides, and cut off lock
after lock about her face. She looked a caricature of her sober self.
But she was well used to curling hair like this, drawing its crisp
silver into shining rings; and she stood patiently before the glass and
coaxed her own locks into just such fashion as had framed the older
face. It was done, and Lucy Ann looked at herself with a smile all
suffused by love and longing. She was not herself any more; she had
gone back a generation, and chosen a warmer niche. She could have
kissed her face in the glass, it was so like that other dearer one. She
did finger the little curls, with a reminiscent passion, not daring to
think of the darkness where the others had been shut; and, at that
instant, she felt very rich. The change suggested a more faithful
portraiture, and she went up into the spare room and looked through the
closet where her mother's clothes had been hanging so long, untouched.
Selecting a purple thibet, with a little white sprig, she slipped off
her own dress, and stepped into it. She crossed a muslin kerchief on
her breast, and pinned it with the cameo her mother had been used to
wear. It was impossible to look at herself in the doing; but when the
deed was over, she went again to the glass and stood there, held by a
wonder beyond her will. She had resurrected the creature she loved;
this was an enduring portrait, perpetuating, in her own life, another
life as well.
"I'll pack away my own clo'es to-morrer," said Lucy Ann to herself.
"Them are the ones to be put aside."
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