Twin Tales: Are All Men Alike, and, The Lost TitianStringer, Arthur
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Twin Tales: Are All Men Alike, and, The Lost Titian
Stringer, Arthur
Canadian fiction
The more she thought of Raoul Uhlan and his affront to her the more she
hated him. The scene in her studio began to take on the distorted
outlines of a nightmare, merging into something as disquieting as
remembered dreams of being denuded. Even when the ordained reactions of
nature demanded lassitude after tempest she found the incandescent coals
of her hatred fanned by the thought of her helplessness. For it was for
more than the mere indignities to her person that she hated the man. She
hated him for crushing down with an over-brutal heel the egg-shell dream
of her emancipation. She hated him for defiling her peace of mind, for
undermining her faith in a care-free world which she had fought so hard
to attain. He had done more than hurt her pride; he had shaken her
temple of art down about her ears.
Teddie began to see, as she felt seismic undulations in what she had so
foolishly accepted as bed-rock, that her home-life had perhaps stood for
more than she imagined. It had meant not an accidental but an
elaborately sustained dignity, a harboring seclusion, an achieved though
cluttered-up spaciousness where the wheels of existence revolved on
bearings so polished that one was apt to forget their power. And all
this took her thoughts on to Ruby Reamer, the businesslike young girl of
the studios from whom, without quite realizing it, she had learned so
much. Beside the worldly-wise and sophisticated Ruby, Teddie remembered,
she had more than once felt like a petted and pampered and slightly
over-fed Pomeranian beside a quick-witted street-wanderer who’d only too
early learned to forage for a living. And the question as to what Ruby
might do in any such contingency led her to a calmer and colder
assessment of her own resources.
But these, she found, were even more limited than she had imagined.
There seemed no one to whom she could turn in her emergency, no one to
whom she could look for any restoration of dignity without involving
some still greater loss of dignity. And that one word of “dignity,” for
all her untoward impulses of insurrection, was a very large word in the
lexicon of Teddie’s life. She had been mauled and humiliated. She had
been unthinkably misjudged and cheapened. And it was as much the insult
to her intelligence as the hammer-blow to her pride which made her ache
with the half-pagan hunger of rebellious youth for adequate atonement.
It wasn’t until daylight came that any possible plan of procedure
presented itself. Then, as she paced her studio in the more lucid white
light of morning, with the sheathed blade of her indignation still
clanking at her heels, her eye fell on the crayon sketch of Gunboat
Dorgan’s well muscled right arm.
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